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If you don't already know about my unfortanate situation with me and my friends this is a wasted paragraph for you, for you will only be confused...sorry
I'm stuck at a kind of stalemate of thought.....Ok the thing between me, and my old group of friends I found out is only really between me, alex, and micheal. I'm frustrated with those two for different reasons and with different magnatudes....Ok with alex its that he hated me for two months and never told me that...well that pretty much killed all trust between me and him so I'm not sure how solvable that is(or if I want it solved). Then there's micheal...I've been thinking alot of about this, and it really only comes down to him putting some kind of effort into the friendship...thats what the massive struggle has been about....so I've been thinking about talking to him about it, but this contradicts everything....this would just be me puting MORE effort into it, and him none.....(All he has to do is walk across the street and we can solve this, but it seems he's unwilling to do so)so I'm stuck at a stalemate...that, and how do I know that they even want to see me again after I've seperated myself, they may have hated me before all of this (I don't know if they did or didn't), but after the seperation I know its alot more likely.....So once again I'm stuck...and farther frustrated....Damn it.
I'm stuck at a kind of stalemate of thought.....Ok the thing between me, and my old group of friends I found out is only really between me, alex, and micheal. I'm frustrated with those two for different reasons and with different magnatudes....Ok with alex its that he hated me for two months and never told me that...well that pretty much killed all trust between me and him so I'm not sure how solvable that is(or if I want it solved). Then there's micheal...I've been thinking alot of about this, and it really only comes down to him putting some kind of effort into the friendship...thats what the massive struggle has been about....so I've been thinking about talking to him about it, but this contradicts everything....this would just be me puting MORE effort into it, and him none.....(All he has to do is walk across the street and we can solve this, but it seems he's unwilling to do so)so I'm stuck at a stalemate...that, and how do I know that they even want to see me again after I've seperated myself, they may have hated me before all of this (I don't know if they did or didn't), but after the seperation I know its alot more likely.....So once again I'm stuck...and farther frustrated....Damn it.