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Ok so Andrew had a going away party about 2 days ago...I kinda wrote about it, but I never said it was the going away party...he had called me about noon that day to get my adress for he can mail me when he got to his training area (AIT)...The conversation consisted of that and me asking what his plans for his last day of freedom were. He said that he was going to get the group together and all of US were going to go find something to do like...I don't know...A going away party...the day slowly crawled by after that as I sat at home on my computer waiting for him to call, and tell me when to come over, or what the plans were....He never called...I actually called later that night to ask about going walking with him later( A normal thing between us) and he declined (this is what the entry was about)...I found out about the party the next day...I was quite angry...and left out....and depressed. Questions began to buzz around my head as a paranoid illusion weaved itself in my mind...that is when I relized that he doesn't want me around...he's just like the rest of my "friends" who pretend to enjoy your company but when your not in the room hurl insults at you, and condem you for being one the worst people they've ever met...and never tell you how they feel..so I would be left alone thinking about this very subject...I have I think 3 friends now that I can ademently trust not to hate me. #1 Busguy-he's new to the group, and hasn't had time enough to hate me. #2Nathan-He's been in the exact same situation with the same friends, and is one of the few who knows how I feel about this.#3 Justin-He's not around enough to hate me yet.
Ok so I just found out today that when my "friend" Micheal hated me about a year1/2 ago that my "friend" Alex also hated me...And I never knew...Bastard...The one that I thought was honorable...and kind....and selfless...was somebody stabing me in the back the intire time....and I never new....for a year and a half....Bastard...I feel like snaping the guys neck.....
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Ok so I just found out today that when my "friend" Micheal hated me about a year1/2 ago that my "friend" Alex also hated me...And I never knew...Bastard...The one that I thought was honorable...and kind....and selfless...was somebody stabing me in the back the intire time....and I never new....for a year and a half....Bastard...I feel like snaping the guys neck.....
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