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This is my first entry to the new journal I started. Enjoy....
September 20th, 2005
I sit here and ponder what the outcome of my life will be. I'm stuck at a dead end. Immigration problems again. I wish I could go back home, but yet I have no career oppertuniy there. I've been doing so much better since I moved down here. I care about school, a job, and my life. I stopped my juvenile acts and ways, and grew up. I don't want to leave here, but all these problems arising are stressing me out.
This is where my dream about living my own life would take place in reality. Too bad my dad is such an asshole. After what my family put me through, I don't know whats worse. The game my dad is playing with me or what my aunt put me through.
I have so much oppertunity down here. I do my best at everything, yet my dad is always mad at me. It's like I'll never gain his approval in my lifetime. I remember him being mad at me when I was skating, about school, about almost everything. One time he even hit me for eating popcorn when I was 18.
I'm tired of all these games my dad is playing. I'm so stressed out. I go to bed crying most of the time, and I barely feel like eating. I weigh 130 again. I stopped working out and running because I'm lacking energy and motivation.
I'm sick of my life. I wish I could get a new one. Someone please help me!
September 20th, 2005
I sit here and ponder what the outcome of my life will be. I'm stuck at a dead end. Immigration problems again. I wish I could go back home, but yet I have no career oppertuniy there. I've been doing so much better since I moved down here. I care about school, a job, and my life. I stopped my juvenile acts and ways, and grew up. I don't want to leave here, but all these problems arising are stressing me out.
This is where my dream about living my own life would take place in reality. Too bad my dad is such an asshole. After what my family put me through, I don't know whats worse. The game my dad is playing with me or what my aunt put me through.
I have so much oppertunity down here. I do my best at everything, yet my dad is always mad at me. It's like I'll never gain his approval in my lifetime. I remember him being mad at me when I was skating, about school, about almost everything. One time he even hit me for eating popcorn when I was 18.
I'm tired of all these games my dad is playing. I'm so stressed out. I go to bed crying most of the time, and I barely feel like eating. I weigh 130 again. I stopped working out and running because I'm lacking energy and motivation.
I'm sick of my life. I wish I could get a new one. Someone please help me!