Leaving....
I leave for Orlando in 2 days and each and every moment that
passes is one more moment that I become scared to death to actually be
on my own. I remember the beginning of senior year i couldnt wait until
i moved and started college, now i am just unbelieveably stressed on
top of other issues. Little by little I pack more and more each day. I
started taking things off my walls yesterday which really makes my room
home. Its weird to walk in my room and see practically bare walls and
things in boxes and bags. If I have any words of advice for the
underclassmen it would be to not take this time for granted because
sooner or later it will all be over in a flash. Especially you
guardies. I would give so much to have it ALL back.
I've never been so stressed and taken on this much responsibility before. It is quite exhiliratiing but at the same time you feel so alone. Finally departing from all my friends, the guard, and my home is unfathomable, i never expected it to be over so soon. Aside from moving everything else in my life has been going very well...except for all the unnecessary gossip and false rumors from people who know nothing. College life should be an incredibly new experience and i cant wait until the smoke clears from my eyes and i can finally breathe. Visits home are going to be a must and will quite possibly happen often my freshman year, until i get old of it and comfortable with my new home that is. Friday morning is going to be such an emotional day. Im going to miss everything so much...
Lastly, I want to share some things...
SABRES! I cant even begin to put into words how much i loved everybody on the line and this picture most definitely has to be my all time favorite. Just look at it..... we'll always be a sabre line.
JADDDDDDDDDDDDDE!! woman, I love you so much, depsite the times i was a complete bitch on the floor when you would make comments and i just wanted to slap you. Deep down i love you so unbelieveably much. Remember those times in middle school when you HATED ME! haha.
PULL IT BACK!!
The guards dress-up day to pretend we are in other guards. Great idea, bad day. It was 1000 degrees and we were DYING of heat and exhaustion. Hilarious and Emma "Run.... RRUUUUUNNNNN!" Practice ended early and we all went to Jades pool to talk shit about the instructors. Oh how i miss those times. <3
Mr. Broadbent.... My other, other father. The man to has been the biggest infulence in my life. Gosh, to not be under his wings anymore is so sad, but thats ok he'll be making the independ guard soon... he better. I truly love this man!!!!
Guard fashion show <3
The opening of our floor for the first time.
The crowd beginning to fill in for finals... it was packed and 2 standing ovations! oh yea, baby. 2!!!
Another view of the arena
Us at finals
The confetti they threw at the end of finals.. it was a beautiful moment even though everyone damn knows we should have medaled.
Guard group shot during one of our many camps.
The unforgettable "face"
Regal... enough said.
On this team kick... ha
Lizzy and I
This one is for Lauren. Fucking JBB, FOREVER! Our loves <3 <3 <3 I'll miss them... or two.
My favorite slutbuket and I. We wont be 8 hours away anymore... i love you... oh gosh do i love you.
Me in school.. or band office area where i spent majority of my time when i should have been in class.
Chris, Lia and I a loooong time ago.
Derek and I
Us winning the sfwga trophy one again for the what... 3rd year in a row? Fucking eat me out stoneman douglas! Cant touch this....
4th of July... the night my life turned upside down... We look happy at that moment, but dinner was GREAT!
LAUREN fucking MADERA,
Where to even start..... UGH! seriously, just jump in my pocket and come with me. I have no idea what i am going to do without by my side and especially not being able to call you to hang out for no reason when there is nothing to do. So many memories that I cherish between us. I will forever come to you for everything because you always seem to be right. I love you more than words can express and you truly are a sister to me. You've helped me through SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much and i dont know how i can repay you. This is going to be so hard to say goodbye Friday morning. I just cant leave you, but its life and i have to move on to other things, buts it ok, just make sure broadbent starts the independent guard. At least i'll be able to see you when you're with Braddock and Im with NEi, and aside from the trips home, which i'll be making often because yea, you know. Everything in Orlando will feel incomplete with you 5 minutes away from me because now it is 230miles. Lauren, aside from all the crap that you have been through throughout your life I want to let you know you are beautiful, and it is a shame that a guy cant see past other things. You truly are one of my heros in life. I dont know how you manage to go through everything you do in life and still proceed to smile as big as you do. I could never do that. One day you will meet a boy who will fall so in love with you it will be ridiculous. I understand you dont realize that now, but you will as time goes on. You're 18, so young and a guy will come to see that you are an amazing human being. :sigh: I love you with all my heart, forever and ever and ever x's infinity.
I've never been so stressed and taken on this much responsibility before. It is quite exhiliratiing but at the same time you feel so alone. Finally departing from all my friends, the guard, and my home is unfathomable, i never expected it to be over so soon. Aside from moving everything else in my life has been going very well...except for all the unnecessary gossip and false rumors from people who know nothing. College life should be an incredibly new experience and i cant wait until the smoke clears from my eyes and i can finally breathe. Visits home are going to be a must and will quite possibly happen often my freshman year, until i get old of it and comfortable with my new home that is. Friday morning is going to be such an emotional day. Im going to miss everything so much...
Lastly, I want to share some things...
SABRES! I cant even begin to put into words how much i loved everybody on the line and this picture most definitely has to be my all time favorite. Just look at it..... we'll always be a sabre line.
JADDDDDDDDDDDDDE!! woman, I love you so much, depsite the times i was a complete bitch on the floor when you would make comments and i just wanted to slap you. Deep down i love you so unbelieveably much. Remember those times in middle school when you HATED ME! haha.
PULL IT BACK!!
The guards dress-up day to pretend we are in other guards. Great idea, bad day. It was 1000 degrees and we were DYING of heat and exhaustion. Hilarious and Emma "Run.... RRUUUUUNNNNN!" Practice ended early and we all went to Jades pool to talk shit about the instructors. Oh how i miss those times. <3
Mr. Broadbent.... My other, other father. The man to has been the biggest infulence in my life. Gosh, to not be under his wings anymore is so sad, but thats ok he'll be making the independ guard soon... he better. I truly love this man!!!!
Guard fashion show <3
The opening of our floor for the first time.
The crowd beginning to fill in for finals... it was packed and 2 standing ovations! oh yea, baby. 2!!!
Another view of the arena
Us at finals
The confetti they threw at the end of finals.. it was a beautiful moment even though everyone damn knows we should have medaled.
Guard group shot during one of our many camps.
The unforgettable "face"
Regal... enough said.
On this team kick... ha
Lizzy and I
This one is for Lauren. Fucking JBB, FOREVER! Our loves <3 <3 <3 I'll miss them... or two.
My favorite slutbuket and I. We wont be 8 hours away anymore... i love you... oh gosh do i love you.
Me in school.. or band office area where i spent majority of my time when i should have been in class.
Chris, Lia and I a loooong time ago.
Derek and I
Us winning the sfwga trophy one again for the what... 3rd year in a row? Fucking eat me out stoneman douglas! Cant touch this....
4th of July... the night my life turned upside down... We look happy at that moment, but dinner was GREAT!
LAUREN fucking MADERA,
Where to even start..... UGH! seriously, just jump in my pocket and come with me. I have no idea what i am going to do without by my side and especially not being able to call you to hang out for no reason when there is nothing to do. So many memories that I cherish between us. I will forever come to you for everything because you always seem to be right. I love you more than words can express and you truly are a sister to me. You've helped me through SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much and i dont know how i can repay you. This is going to be so hard to say goodbye Friday morning. I just cant leave you, but its life and i have to move on to other things, buts it ok, just make sure broadbent starts the independent guard. At least i'll be able to see you when you're with Braddock and Im with NEi, and aside from the trips home, which i'll be making often because yea, you know. Everything in Orlando will feel incomplete with you 5 minutes away from me because now it is 230miles. Lauren, aside from all the crap that you have been through throughout your life I want to let you know you are beautiful, and it is a shame that a guy cant see past other things. You truly are one of my heros in life. I dont know how you manage to go through everything you do in life and still proceed to smile as big as you do. I could never do that. One day you will meet a boy who will fall so in love with you it will be ridiculous. I understand you dont realize that now, but you will as time goes on. You're 18, so young and a guy will come to see that you are an amazing human being. :sigh: I love you with all my heart, forever and ever and ever x's infinity.