Poker Face
Did you ever have one of those days where all the variables are stacked up against you? Where your best intentions are misconsued? Where work just becomes work and no longer something you love? Where you don't feel like eating because you just want to feel as physically empty as you do emotionally?
I have stopped answering the phone today. Each time I do I cry.
My Grandfather is in the hospital.
The parents of one of my grade 3 classes are rebelling against me.
I have lost the desire to communicate with others... At least conversationally.
Family dynamics are hurting my brain. My brother won't visit my grandparents because he is carrying the grudge of my father. My mother is alone. My father is driving me crazy because he just wants information.
I had an awful fight with the Boy. Awful.
I am running away tonight. I will be back tomorrow with my poker face and go back to the show. But not today.
Today I am tired. Of everything.