I don't care anymore
I am totaly crushed, my best friend want to let a guy ruin the best friendship in the world.. i really don't have a reason to live anymore, the two people who were supposed to be my friends led me on to think different things. that hurts, in fact it all hurts, im hurt... i can't look or even talk to kelly casue it hurts me. but she has this i don't care attitude about everything that has happened and that makes me think she doesn't care and that hurts as well. Im not sure if i want or even have any friends anymore, the one who was supposed to be my friend has hurt me really bad. I can remember when jason said he liked me and not kelly, i couldn't even look at jason because i knew kelly was hurting, feeling the same way i feel now, but i feel worse cause she is still GAGA over him and she doesn't act like it bothers her that he led us both on about everything. but im through with this convo about him, Im no longer going to the Silver Ball, I will either be at GH or The Edge. im not going to be around someone who wants to destroy a GREAT freindship (well it was anyway I don't know what it is now. All this jazz with mandy and I has worked out, i think mandy and I are better friends now than we were before, we can be OPEN and HONEST with each other and we don't have to HIDE THINGS casue of what THEY MIGHT DO TO OTHERS. so yea, thats all good. I love Chelle.... Im upset with myself cause I can't do anything to help her, i want to.. I want to be there for her so bad. well im done with this post if anyone has anything to say feel free to say it.. OH AND I WANT TO KNOW WHAT EVERYONE THINKS OF ME!!!!
<3 ASH
<3 ASH