eight months later...
well as i can see most people arent using livejournal like they used to...
i see that as good and bad...
it makes me feel like i can vent...
but i dont really have many people to give me advice.
but maybe thats a good thing too.
maybe all the advice that people have been giving me is just making me even more stressed out?
hmmmm...
well here goes->
im still upset about the way things are going in my life.
about two months ago brad and i broke up.
it didnt last very long but it was extremely stressful for both of us
i really do love him with all my heart but im not sure that he feels the same way
and i just dont know how much longer i can deal with that!
we have been together for over a year and a half now and he still wont say it
and of course if he doesnt mean it then i dont want him to say it
I WANT HIM TO MEAN IT...
actually a correction is to be made!
he did tell me that he loved me!
he told me on prom night of our senior year and i sweatr it was the best night of my life
but the worst night of my life came a few weeks later when he took it back
i swear i wanted to die right then and there
how on earth do you tell someone that you love them and then just take it back?
i just dont get it
but thats over and done with so i guess i have to move on...
ugh...now im getting upset bringing this all up again
it wouldnt be so bad if i had somebody to talk to about it
i feel like such a loser now because i have been so wrapped up in my relationship with brad that i have almost completely lost touch with all of my friends.
actually thats not all my fault either...
he doesnt like hardly anyone...or he gets mad at them
so we never could hang out with my friends it was always his!
so slowly i began to make his friends mine and now he doesnt even hang ou tiwh thtem anymore
oh my goodness this is frustrating and confusing
all i wanna do is be with him and i would be more willing to deal with the fact that i dont have all those friends anymore if i was sure that he felt the same...
but i'm not...
i know that GOD will make things right for me but i am just having a really hard time waiting for something to happen!
i see that as good and bad...
it makes me feel like i can vent...
but i dont really have many people to give me advice.
but maybe thats a good thing too.
maybe all the advice that people have been giving me is just making me even more stressed out?
hmmmm...
well here goes->
im still upset about the way things are going in my life.
about two months ago brad and i broke up.
it didnt last very long but it was extremely stressful for both of us
i really do love him with all my heart but im not sure that he feels the same way
and i just dont know how much longer i can deal with that!
we have been together for over a year and a half now and he still wont say it
and of course if he doesnt mean it then i dont want him to say it
I WANT HIM TO MEAN IT...
actually a correction is to be made!
he did tell me that he loved me!
he told me on prom night of our senior year and i sweatr it was the best night of my life
but the worst night of my life came a few weeks later when he took it back
i swear i wanted to die right then and there
how on earth do you tell someone that you love them and then just take it back?
i just dont get it
but thats over and done with so i guess i have to move on...
ugh...now im getting upset bringing this all up again
it wouldnt be so bad if i had somebody to talk to about it
i feel like such a loser now because i have been so wrapped up in my relationship with brad that i have almost completely lost touch with all of my friends.
actually thats not all my fault either...
he doesnt like hardly anyone...or he gets mad at them
so we never could hang out with my friends it was always his!
so slowly i began to make his friends mine and now he doesnt even hang ou tiwh thtem anymore
oh my goodness this is frustrating and confusing
all i wanna do is be with him and i would be more willing to deal with the fact that i dont have all those friends anymore if i was sure that he felt the same...
but i'm not...
i know that GOD will make things right for me but i am just having a really hard time waiting for something to happen!