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[ash8387]

i fucking HATE you... i've defended you.. i've still kept in contact with you.. i've listened, i've cared i've done everything i shouldnt have because you shouldnt be a part of my life.. because YOU fucked up.. YOU cheated, you wanted another girl.. and here you are, writing the SAME SHIT AGAIN...... i trust you, you break my trust.. i try and trust you as a friend, and you break my trust again..... you are full of lies and FUCKING MEANINGLESS WORDS that i NEVER EVER want to hear from you again.. you don't know what love means.. and you shouldn't tell me you love me, or say you want to be with me, when what you say to other people gives the rest of the world the impression that you DONT! I FUCKING HATE YOU.. I NEVER WANT TO HEAR YOUR VOICE, SEE YOUR FACE, AND LISTEN TO THE FAKE BULLSHIT THAT COMES OUT OF YOUR MOUTH... you are the lowest piece of crap i know.. and that i have ever dated... I'm too good for you... and to think that I STILL HAD THE DECENCY TO CARE?!?!?!?!? HOW FUCKING RIDICULOUS AM I?! IM AN IDIOT! I have become the girl that everyone laughs at because they kno the guy will never change and shes still running after him in some way or another.... WELL LAUGH AWAY... CAUSE I FUCKING LET MYSELF TURN INTO THAT GIRL.... AND I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i refuse to be that girl anymore.. call your skanks... and stupid hook up girls.. because no one will ever care like i did.. and put up with shit like i did for SO FUCKING LONG... i deserve better so why can't i find it?!?!?!

I HATE BEING HURT........... I HATE IT SOO MUCH..

im so alone and i hate it.. i dont wanna go home and i dont want to be here.. so where do i go???