PJC. Lawrence and anything else I feel like writing about...
I feel so accomplished right now that I feel the need to update this journal more than once today. I have managed to complete my experiment for my final in experimental psychology. I thought I'd never see the end of that stupid thing... and now that I do... It feels nice.-- All I have left to do is post my report on a display board and take it to class on Thursday :)
Something really good happened today.. I saw one of my old teachers today at the mall. Now some may think, whats so special about that... but this was the teacher that help me realize what my major should be.. She helped me decide to become a psychologist and I owe a lot to her. She's the best teacher I've had since I've started PJC. It was really great to see her... and she may even come see me graduate this Friday.
Not only am I one day closer to seeing the end of PJC and all the shit I've been through this semester, but I'm also one day closer to being with Lawrence, and that makes me happier than anything. You know, I never thought I could feel this way about someone.. .I mean, I thought I had feelings of love before with my *EX* but it doesn't even start to compare to what I feel with Lawrence. He's so understanding all the time (except for when I tell him I want to cut my hair) that he just makes me happy everyday. For once in my life I have someone I can count on in my life. Someone I know who will always be there for me when I need him. A TRUE best friend. He's the type of person I need in my life. He keeps me straight. He tries his best to take care of me even though he is 3000 miles away, and that makes me feel like the most important thing in his life.. It makes me smile and glow just to see the way he cares about me. He loves me the way I've always wanted to be loved, and you know what, its the best feeling in the world... Since September.. and even before really.... I have felt like I'm floating on a cloud and nothing can touch me or bring me down off this high I am on... Just sitting here writing about him and the way he makes me feel makes me smile and think about seeing him and getting to be with him for the rest of my life. I know he's the one I want to be with.. and there's nothing I won't do to be with him. He keeps me sane.. and without him... I don't know what I would do... He's got my heart forever...... and I love him more than words can really explain...
Something really good happened today.. I saw one of my old teachers today at the mall. Now some may think, whats so special about that... but this was the teacher that help me realize what my major should be.. She helped me decide to become a psychologist and I owe a lot to her. She's the best teacher I've had since I've started PJC. It was really great to see her... and she may even come see me graduate this Friday.
Not only am I one day closer to seeing the end of PJC and all the shit I've been through this semester, but I'm also one day closer to being with Lawrence, and that makes me happier than anything. You know, I never thought I could feel this way about someone.. .I mean, I thought I had feelings of love before with my *EX* but it doesn't even start to compare to what I feel with Lawrence. He's so understanding all the time (except for when I tell him I want to cut my hair) that he just makes me happy everyday. For once in my life I have someone I can count on in my life. Someone I know who will always be there for me when I need him. A TRUE best friend. He's the type of person I need in my life. He keeps me straight. He tries his best to take care of me even though he is 3000 miles away, and that makes me feel like the most important thing in his life.. It makes me smile and glow just to see the way he cares about me. He loves me the way I've always wanted to be loved, and you know what, its the best feeling in the world... Since September.. and even before really.... I have felt like I'm floating on a cloud and nothing can touch me or bring me down off this high I am on... Just sitting here writing about him and the way he makes me feel makes me smile and think about seeing him and getting to be with him for the rest of my life. I know he's the one I want to be with.. and there's nothing I won't do to be with him. He keeps me sane.. and without him... I don't know what I would do... He's got my heart forever...... and I love him more than words can really explain...