my therapy
Today was pretty good first day of school..it started off well...i had calss and then i saw micheal which is always a good thing. then i felt like it was a family reunion! i saw all of my friends...i missed them sooooo much! i almost wanted to cry when i saw toyka. i was realy excited to see "mom", but she wasn't that happy to see me i don't think. well i rean up to her and gave her a hug. she didn't want me to do that so i gave her a hug again while walking but she just asked me, "why are you touching me?" i dont know why. she does that a lot now. maybe i show too much affection, but we used to "touch" each other all the time. i dont know what happened. i was just happy to see her that's all. oh well, maybe im making too much of this. forget it. a friend that i thought was my friend, apparently they've made some decisions about me and nobdy has told me, was very mean to me and really hurt me. i hate being treated like im stupid...like i dont know anything. why do people treat me that way? i dont understand it. i mean i could understand if i was stupid but im not...so don't treat me like i am. is it my fault that my brain has been pulled and stuffed and pick like a turkey? no it's not...im sorry that i can barely hear anymore out of either ear...im sorry if words sound diffrent to me b/c im going deaf...im sorry!
i heard from a friend that writing poetry is therapy...im not copying, just coying to see if it works...
My feelings are hurt
Tears fall like showers and I thought you cared.
the feelings i expressed, you made me think we shared.
No, why am i a secret?
You tell me you love me in private
you hug me in private
you tkae me seriously in private
I'm a shadow to you
you stabbed me and it hurt me like i didn't think it would
the pain runs through me and i wish you could
feel what i feel, and see what i see
but you cant. i try to show you i love you but you dont want me
i tell you how much i love you but you dont understand
you told me you love me, don't you see?!!
i wish i could hug you
i wish i could love you
i wish i could say it to you
i let you know me, i let you see me, and you knew
done you understand?
I was there when you needed me and
i was there through the broken hearts, stolen dreams and
i was there through the sex and the drugs and
yet i can't touch you.
in pricate my words mean more to you than gold
as a secret you know me as friends of old
i'm tired, the hurt burns me and i can't hold
you anymore, i can't take it the burn is unbearable!!!
I said i was tired, let go of my ankles!!
I thought you loved me
you told me you did
i gave you everything, there was mothing i hid
you cant see me, you just cant see.
i heard from a friend that writing poetry is therapy...im not copying, just coying to see if it works...
My feelings are hurt
Tears fall like showers and I thought you cared.
the feelings i expressed, you made me think we shared.
No, why am i a secret?
You tell me you love me in private
you hug me in private
you tkae me seriously in private
I'm a shadow to you
you stabbed me and it hurt me like i didn't think it would
the pain runs through me and i wish you could
feel what i feel, and see what i see
but you cant. i try to show you i love you but you dont want me
i tell you how much i love you but you dont understand
you told me you love me, don't you see?!!
i wish i could hug you
i wish i could love you
i wish i could say it to you
i let you know me, i let you see me, and you knew
done you understand?
I was there when you needed me and
i was there through the broken hearts, stolen dreams and
i was there through the sex and the drugs and
yet i can't touch you.
in pricate my words mean more to you than gold
as a secret you know me as friends of old
i'm tired, the hurt burns me and i can't hold
you anymore, i can't take it the burn is unbearable!!!
I said i was tired, let go of my ankles!!
I thought you loved me
you told me you did
i gave you everything, there was mothing i hid
you cant see me, you just cant see.