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I don't know how i'm feeling exactly, I made the mistake of trusting again, lies. I hate the lies. And everyone seems to think I have a problem opening up, and trusting. Well this is why. Because I have faith in too many people and get let down. I don't think it's worth it like I used to. Maturity is missing and actual faith in the goodness of people is lost. I feel played and stupid for feeling liked and silly for thinking about this in my spare time and unlucky compared to everyone elses newfound glory in relationships. I don't get involved quickly anymore. Charm is my worst enemy, and so are hot bods and pearly smiles. This has nothing to do with recent aspirations for good things to happen for me. This is just a recap of all of my fears to date.
I'm so happy.
I'm so happy.