High school haunts me.
High school haunted me tonight. Not in a total negitive way, but not in a real positive way either.
First, let me say, that i got bit by the "clean up your LJ" bug today. I went back and deleted all of my old entries. All the way from March of 2002. I read a lot of them, most of them were pretty hillarious to me, cause i remember writing it, and how it felt to write it. But, like billie, the past is the past, and it doesnt need to be there anymore. I'm cleaning up all of my xangas next.
I want to start over, i dont want to remember a lot of what happened to me. I dont want to remember how "in love" i was with charlie, i dont want to remember all of that heartache, it doesnt matter now. I have the love of my life, and he's sitting on that couch saying "wakka wakka wak". I want to keep the memories of him an i.
So, back to feeling like i was in high school all over again. First, i ran into Josh Smith, i had classes with him at riverdale (along with his twin brother), and at holloway, which is where josh and i became really close. He was one of the first people to know about my coke habbit, it was the first one to know i had a crush on anyone and he was one of my best friends at holloway. It was nice to see him again, he's still the same, much more grown up though. Secondly, i sold some things, things like what i used to sell on the DL in highschool. I'm actually really mad at myself, for that. It was something that i did a lot, at school. and something that i was always scared of getting busted with. except in highschool, you cant go to big people jail most of the time. ::sigh:: i'm mad at myself cause i should have had the brains to tell her no, but, i wanted some extra money, so i did it. (no not sex, perverts) damn.
so isnt this a fantastic way to start of my starting a new. ::rolls eyes:: i think billie is disappointed in me for selling. goddamnit. i just need to let that be that, and not get into anymore. i did, for a while hardcore style. fuck.
anyway, jeSs
and now a Kwiz my ME take it bitches.
First, let me say, that i got bit by the "clean up your LJ" bug today. I went back and deleted all of my old entries. All the way from March of 2002. I read a lot of them, most of them were pretty hillarious to me, cause i remember writing it, and how it felt to write it. But, like billie, the past is the past, and it doesnt need to be there anymore. I'm cleaning up all of my xangas next.
I want to start over, i dont want to remember a lot of what happened to me. I dont want to remember how "in love" i was with charlie, i dont want to remember all of that heartache, it doesnt matter now. I have the love of my life, and he's sitting on that couch saying "wakka wakka wak". I want to keep the memories of him an i.
So, back to feeling like i was in high school all over again. First, i ran into Josh Smith, i had classes with him at riverdale (along with his twin brother), and at holloway, which is where josh and i became really close. He was one of the first people to know about my coke habbit, it was the first one to know i had a crush on anyone and he was one of my best friends at holloway. It was nice to see him again, he's still the same, much more grown up though. Secondly, i sold some things, things like what i used to sell on the DL in highschool. I'm actually really mad at myself, for that. It was something that i did a lot, at school. and something that i was always scared of getting busted with. except in highschool, you cant go to big people jail most of the time. ::sigh:: i'm mad at myself cause i should have had the brains to tell her no, but, i wanted some extra money, so i did it. (no not sex, perverts) damn.
so isnt this a fantastic way to start of my starting a new. ::rolls eyes:: i think billie is disappointed in me for selling. goddamnit. i just need to let that be that, and not get into anymore. i did, for a while hardcore style. fuck.
anyway, jeSs
and now a Kwiz my ME take it bitches.