May 27, 2010 00:29
How do you know you are not crazy?
I mean, when you're thoughts go in two different directions on the same issue... isn't that some sort of insanity? Or... maybe, that's what drives some one to be less sane.
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So, I play softball. I play in 3 leagues. Normally... no over lapping.... but nooooooo, today.... All 3 leagues had games at the same time.
Last year this wouldn't be a problem. I played on 2 teams that were full of assholes. But this year, I play on 3 amazing teams. Mind you, when I say amazing, I mean, they drink and are sarcastic and we play softball during the drinking and sarcasm.
I couldn't even flip a coin to make this decision (yes, I could have rolled my new nifty d3).... So, I ended up choosing by if i had to buy gas or not. I choose wisely. It was a great night. We won (and reports are so far 1 of the other teams won also, and I'm not sure of the 3rd team).
So, yes, we won, then we had BBQ, then played some red neck washers, and then talked and talked. I liked it. I feel it was good for my soul. (ooooo that is overly deep - i get it) Maybe it was just good to listen to other people talk, and then, I got to talk about Egupt a bit with fellow travelers of the world, and they understood the awe and the overwhemling feelings of history taking place where you stand.
Example - when I was standing in the middle of the road on the Avenue of Spinxes in Luxor... it hit me... that 3000 years ago.... pharaohs I learned about... MARCHED DOWN THAT SAME ROAD. I was humbled. -- it is a similar feeling to when i think about how small and unimportant I am compared to the stars in the sky.
2nd example - when I was in the Library of Alexandria. Yeah, the orgrainal burnt down. But the amount of books and knowledge that I will never be able to learn, that was free for me to access there.... and the fact that SO many people/lives/souls stood in the same place before me, brought me to tears. (that, and maybe the fact i love books that much).
something i hold high: the calm before a storm...........
something i sput upon: being so unsure of where you stand