we don't do that no more
recently got rid of facebook again. so tired of the stupid drama.
besides, too... public. not a good place to vent or just be a crank.
it isnt a healthy place unless you're posting selfies, babies, doggos or memes. and if that is all you're posting and have no therapist, well then you're not venting at all.
livejournal has a nice balance of not being as actively used as Twitter, facebook and wordpress but still being able to post what you want!
lately: struggling to get the energy to find work. doing some side work. and being visited not only at night but during the day as well by at least one, probably more like 2 invisible succubus like entities.
basically? they go down on me. all night. any time of day. and it is getting better at it, which is kind of shocking... I wish I had a valid, psychological explanation for all this. but I don't. I have tried to make it go away by telling myself it's not real.
I do not understand what they really want other than the sexual stuff. it is a little confusing. I enjoy what I can and finish myself off. they havent quite gotten there yet.
and I have a name, too. claudia. which oddly enough escapes me at certain times.
one worrysome attribute is that I feel like they are interfering with my summonings. none of the goetic demons I have called have come and I dont understand why not.
I tell her, 'please let them in' as I have previously asked her to keep entities I have not invited away.
why? because a few nights in a row, male entities were coming in and bothering me. they were pretty strong and I didnt kike being man handled, either.
I'm sitting in bed and can hear her at the foot of my bed. i enjoy hot being alone 24/7 but this isnt exactly healthy. I know it isn't and it has me stuck.