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I dont think I could have found a song that better suits exactly what is happening right now.
I feel like I cant talk to anyone. I dont even feel like I can talk to Torri or Heather. I mean Torri has her new life now. She is up in Ottawa having a blast with all her dorm friends and Blaise she does not want to get a phone call from me to say hey so I feel like shit. She wants to have fun enjoy her life without the weight of someones stupid mistakes that they keep making. Hence the song to follow. And Heather, I mean she is my best friend but people keep saying how frustrated she gets with me and it seems like she talks to everyone about me when she is pissed at me. I mean everyone I talk to seems to have a knowledge of pone point when she was pisse doff and its going to be Amber all over again. and I dont want that, I cant take that. So yet again lets pick up the tylenol. At least I wash it down with orange juice instead of booze, I was thinking about ti though.
I dont feel the way I've ever felt.
I know.
Im gonna smile and not get worried.
I try but it shows.
Anyone can make what I have built.
And better now,
Anyone can find the same white pills.
It takes my pain away.
Its a lie, a kiss with open eyes.
And she's not breathing back.
Anything but bother me.
Nevermind these are hurried times.
Oh oh oh
I can't let it bother me.
I never thought I'd walk away from you.
I did.
But it's a false sense of accomplishment.
Everytime I quit.
Anyone can see my every flaw.
It isn't hard.
Anyone can say they're above this all.
It takes my pain away.
I can't let it bother me.
It takes my pain away.