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Do you ever have one of those days where everything you do puts a new situation into perspective? There is so much bullshit in a 17 year old girls life its ridiculous. It just seems as though I can no longer be happy anymore. I mean my friends make me laugh and I put on a smile at school and such but I just cant ge tthe happy feeling inside.
Chris had pointed out to me that I seemed off lately and not myself and I snapped on him. I dont snap on people. I normally laugh anything off I hardly ever get angry I dont understand. There is just so much I am trying to deal with right now and I cant. I can't take it. Hardly anyone knows about the big stuff, nor do I want them to. Its weird, I make a big deal out of these little things to people to make it look like failing my essay was a huge deal when really I could care less. Like here I am with my mom dying and I act as though I dont care but I miss one line in a monologue for studipo cabaret and I freak out. Im a fucked up little girl.