3months and now
last october i went to this super-crazy party at my weed dealers house. everyone was smoking cigarettes and hitting bongs and i joined in and was soon ripped. around 9, becca said terry was taking orders for cocaine and i gave him some cash. around 10, he gave me my money back and said his guy wasn't coming through. around 11, after id burned through 4 more bowls and 5 more cigs, terry came back and said his supplier was coming through after all. at 1 am, a couple girls and i huddled up in the bathroom and we each did four lines and i felt amazing. smoked sooo many cigs after that.
haven't done coke since then. haven't even had more than one cig a week since then and i dont even feel like getting high. i used to feel like drugs turned my life into a crazy, fantabulous party, but now it doesnt and i only want to get high when im at a super fantabulous party.
and now tonight there's another party and i feel like my hands have been shaking all day. i bought a pack of cigs and some weed just for the party and i know there's another guy there who can score some good blow and im soooo excited. i know i shouldnt but its been 3 months and i want a night of drug-enhanced craziness. please don't hate me for wanting one night.
haven't done coke since then. haven't even had more than one cig a week since then and i dont even feel like getting high. i used to feel like drugs turned my life into a crazy, fantabulous party, but now it doesnt and i only want to get high when im at a super fantabulous party.
and now tonight there's another party and i feel like my hands have been shaking all day. i bought a pack of cigs and some weed just for the party and i know there's another guy there who can score some good blow and im soooo excited. i know i shouldnt but its been 3 months and i want a night of drug-enhanced craziness. please don't hate me for wanting one night.