My month of freedom so far
As you may know I finished at La Senza a on August 3rd and with no start date confirmed for my new job I've been enjoying my new found freedom or trying too! It's been rather hit and miss mostly miss.
I've started a new healthy eating plan, targeted to reduce stress and anxiety it's mostly minimal processed food, lots of fruit and veg, no caffeine, no alcohol, and only dark chocolate plus lots of magnesium rich foods. Aside from the few days spent with my parents (partly temptation on offer and partly not wanting to cause a fuss for parents) I've done really well at sticking to this plan.
As for reducing my anxiety I can't say I've seen effects but it is possible that I'm feeling healthier with more energy and less of the horrid bloating after meals I've always suffered with, its too soon to make any real judgements yet on the actual effect of the diet.
I'm thinking of trying plates again and mindfulness medication but to be honest I'd be surprised it I manage to stick with it. One victory at a time.
With no news as to a start date on the new job and not starting at all becoming more of a possibility money issues have left me very anxious, feeling low and unwilling to do anything fun that I'd planned because everything costs money and train fairs and admission fess cost a lot so I mostly just stayed indoors feeling bored but unable to make myself do anything like make icons or read a book.
After a week of this I went home to the parents where my anxiety hit a new high as I'm beginning to worry that they aren't coping well (their both in their 60's and mum has fibromyalgia) I've never seen the house look so messy or unclean. I know they would never admit to needing help, or accept it. I cleaned a bit while I was home but even that was met with disapproval from my dad who went mad at me for moving things, I don't want to image what trouble trying to put away months of junk would cause. On top of this I found an old ID card of mine from my nursing days in with my parents things it did not end up there by accident so I then had something close to a full on anxiety attack because why would they take that and hold onto it? Do they wish I'd never left nursing?
I did however have a few nice days out with my parents and I took some pictures, now I'm settled back in my place and back on the healthy eating plan, and I have a interview for different job in September as a back up (if there is still no news from NHS 111) I'm starting to feel much more level. I thinking of planning some day trips next week maybe London zoo, and Birmingham canal?
The interview makes me feel more financially secure since I've interviewed for this company back in February and their feedback was that the only thing that stopped me getting the job was that I was so very nervous, that was my first interview in years, I'm over that now. Plus this is my back up plan I may still have the NHS job, failure here is not the end of the world. I don't really want to decide between 2 job offers anyway.
Here are some of the photo's from Beachy Head visited with my parents:
Sorry long post is long, even with cuts.
I've started a new healthy eating plan, targeted to reduce stress and anxiety it's mostly minimal processed food, lots of fruit and veg, no caffeine, no alcohol, and only dark chocolate plus lots of magnesium rich foods. Aside from the few days spent with my parents (partly temptation on offer and partly not wanting to cause a fuss for parents) I've done really well at sticking to this plan.
As for reducing my anxiety I can't say I've seen effects but it is possible that I'm feeling healthier with more energy and less of the horrid bloating after meals I've always suffered with, its too soon to make any real judgements yet on the actual effect of the diet.
I'm thinking of trying plates again and mindfulness medication but to be honest I'd be surprised it I manage to stick with it. One victory at a time.
With no news as to a start date on the new job and not starting at all becoming more of a possibility money issues have left me very anxious, feeling low and unwilling to do anything fun that I'd planned because everything costs money and train fairs and admission fess cost a lot so I mostly just stayed indoors feeling bored but unable to make myself do anything like make icons or read a book.
After a week of this I went home to the parents where my anxiety hit a new high as I'm beginning to worry that they aren't coping well (their both in their 60's and mum has fibromyalgia) I've never seen the house look so messy or unclean. I know they would never admit to needing help, or accept it. I cleaned a bit while I was home but even that was met with disapproval from my dad who went mad at me for moving things, I don't want to image what trouble trying to put away months of junk would cause. On top of this I found an old ID card of mine from my nursing days in with my parents things it did not end up there by accident so I then had something close to a full on anxiety attack because why would they take that and hold onto it? Do they wish I'd never left nursing?
I did however have a few nice days out with my parents and I took some pictures, now I'm settled back in my place and back on the healthy eating plan, and I have a interview for different job in September as a back up (if there is still no news from NHS 111) I'm starting to feel much more level. I thinking of planning some day trips next week maybe London zoo, and Birmingham canal?
The interview makes me feel more financially secure since I've interviewed for this company back in February and their feedback was that the only thing that stopped me getting the job was that I was so very nervous, that was my first interview in years, I'm over that now. Plus this is my back up plan I may still have the NHS job, failure here is not the end of the world. I don't really want to decide between 2 job offers anyway.
Here are some of the photo's from Beachy Head visited with my parents:
Sorry long post is long, even with cuts.