You may wan't to avoid this, I can do self pity woe is me better than the 10th doctor.
Oh this is no good. I'm terrified of going back into work, I really don't know how I'm going to face it. It's a stupid crappy minimum wage job I don't even like it should not have this kind of power over me. I've felt nervous and nauseous for days now and I should be enjoying my week off. I can't bring myself to take any photos my passion has gone even though I know what my boss said about me failing in that too is utter crap.
I'd go to the GP and get them to sign me off with stress but it wouldn't fix the problem just delay it and I'd be on a 'letter of concern' ie a warring for it being my 3rd sickness and lateness this year. And I still haven't found my till card.
The weather is not helping. I love the summer I live for the summer and it doesn't look like its going to make a show this year. We are halfway though May but the weather is more late November, cold, dark overcast sky's, wind and rain. If it was just sunny maybe I could drag myself out the house. Everything feels pointless and my life empty and sound like a fucking whiny brat that doesn't have a care it the world but is still complaining. Is this really who I am? God I don't want to be that girl.
Right it may be 5pm and skys may be grey but sunset is not till 9 I'm taking my camera out to the lake, what's the worst that could happen? Every picture looks dull and gets scraped? Well that leaves me no worse off than not going out and getting no pictures to start with
I'd go to the GP and get them to sign me off with stress but it wouldn't fix the problem just delay it and I'd be on a 'letter of concern' ie a warring for it being my 3rd sickness and lateness this year. And I still haven't found my till card.
The weather is not helping. I love the summer I live for the summer and it doesn't look like its going to make a show this year. We are halfway though May but the weather is more late November, cold, dark overcast sky's, wind and rain. If it was just sunny maybe I could drag myself out the house. Everything feels pointless and my life empty and sound like a fucking whiny brat that doesn't have a care it the world but is still complaining. Is this really who I am? God I don't want to be that girl.
Right it may be 5pm and skys may be grey but sunset is not till 9 I'm taking my camera out to the lake, what's the worst that could happen? Every picture looks dull and gets scraped? Well that leaves me no worse off than not going out and getting no pictures to start with