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I need your grace
To remind me to
Find my own.
I don't feel like being clever today, so I'm letting lyrics speak for me. Simply, I'm very happy.
The great news is that Friday I was put in charge of my company's spring conference. This is a huge deal and a big vote of trust. Last year I just managed the Bill Gates dinner, but this year I'll be marketing the whole event.
We had an ad placed for the Digital Freedom Campaign in the Wall Street Journal and all my projects are doing really well. Funny how things turn around on me so fast.
I used to be pretty embarrassed when I explained to people the type of work that I do. Now I'm really starting to feel proud.
Tears stop right here,
I know we've all had a bumpy ride
My actual birthday (Monday) was amazing. Thanks for all the well wishes. John took me to a very cinematic dinner at Lauriol Plaza. The food and sangria were awesome, and it just felt dashing and wintry.
We ran over and met Wes and a few new friends at the 9:30 club for Imogen Heap; she's really changed things up since the last time I saw her. She came with a crazy pair-- beat boxer Kid Beyond and rogue guitarist Levi Weaver (he played his guitar with a bow) -- and a full, real band in addition to her sampled one.
She played her entire new album, plus "Let Go", "Come Here Boy" from her first record, and "Speeding Cars." Last time she had skipped "Daylight Robbery" and "I am in love with you" which were both highlights of this show. She danced a helluva lot.
Anyway, she's been running around my head all week, so much so that there was a musical number of her song "Just For Now" in my dream last night, with all the D.C. gang harmonizing in an all vocal version of the song and my friend Mikey singing the really high parts. You can see Mikey in that last picture post and see how inappropriate this is.
Get up get out get away from these liars
Cause they don't get your soul or your fire
I've been hanging out with an older crowd lately. It's easier to just be nice to the younger kids and see them when I see them, because they tend to drag me into a lot of old crap. Really, I'm over cloud nine about having young professionals as my main unit.
There are, I believe, some people in life that you never stop loving, no matter how they hurt you or how you grow apart. And working till 9 in the evening every night hasn't helped me move past that.
But watching all my friends pair off has made me really jealous and now I'm seriously moving to some next step.
How I feel about dating had been changing daily. I have all these phone numbers and messages from when I go out. But dating to me had become so methodical. I really didn't want to put any effort in, I just wanted someone to figuratively land in my lap. That time has pretty much ended. There's a lot out there and I'm excited again.
You sit there in your heartache
Waiting on some beautiful boy to
To save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness
Watch it now ... here he comes!
Life always changes a lot for me in November. If you don't believe me, Fergie's new cd is currently my favorite.
But really, I'm making an effort to be more engaging and sincere when I talk to people. Even sweet. I think I spend too much time getting to know every detail about the other person and not enough time sharing of myself.
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus
But he talks like a gentleman
Like you imagined when you were young
The party last night was more us being silly than anything. I got a cute little kiss from Ashton, who I wouldn't mind seeing more. It pretty much energized me. Tonight I'm headed down to Richmond and then I will go play football tomorrow and have that long awaited dinner with Adam on Tuesday. Looking forward to the short week.
My horoscope, which is almost always on point:
SCORPIO: You are coming to the close of one of the most intense periods of your life. You'll probably never stop probing and looking for the hidden meaning in things, but now you might be more interested in applying your wisdom than just gaining more. Circumstances are about to change for the better, especially if you use the time between today and Monday's New Moon to tie up loose ends.
So to wrap up, the last six months I was living my life in these lyrics. It's the best description I've got. It's not from my perspective, more of the way I saw and wanted to see things. But I think I finally got to the end of the song. I hope this makes sense to all of you.
You could be happy and I won't know
But you weren't happy the day I watched you go
And all the things that I wished I had not said
Are played in loops 'till it's madness in my head
Is it too late to remind you how we were
But not our last days of silent screaming blur
Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking out the door
You could be happy, I hope you are
You made me happier than I'd been by far
Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment it's all not true
Do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do
More than anything I want to see you
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world