Motivation
A lot of things went through my head today, and I have decided to jot them down.
I need to remind myself constantly that I need to improve my life, and move on with life, from whatever that I've been hanging on to.
My status. My ego. My thoughts, especially. I need to move on from them in order to feel fresh and happy again.
Quitting school wasn't a direct route to happiness, I realised. I was just avoiding the source of my stress.
Now that I'm diagnosed, I've been unknowingly using it as a form of excuse to avoid contacts, gatherings and even work.
Life is full of ups and downs.
I need to start living my life again.
Start talking to people, making friends, going out, having fun, taking pain, getting through challenges that life pours to me, because this illness is not going to take me down. I'm going to handle it upfront.
I need to grow up.
I'm not a kid anymore.
I should not report every single damn thing to my mum all the time and expect disappointing responses.
I need to grow out of this house.
I need to have my own personality.
I need love.
A nurturing one.
No matter how big our dreams are,
health is still the most important thing to us.