Ponderings of the Good Kind
I woke up this morning, and I realized, that I am probably happier than I have ever been in my lifetime. I felt a sense of peace, and calm.
With the exception of actually needing a JOB- I can't say that there is anything else in life that I want or need right now.
And I realized too, I always said I would stay put where Bekah started Kindergarten, but now with us moving to Wisconsin in June, I am glad that I decided to give her the chance to start over. I think in her case, staying with the same kids through high school would be an unfair situation- they all remember what she was like in 1st grade when she was medicated for something she didnt have. And she wasnt fun to be with. And because of that she doesnt have any friends.
Now she gets a chance to start over with new friends, and new teachers, and a new environment.
She loves having Tarra here, and she tells me that nearly every day. She tells me also, You are happy now Mama. She's right, I am.
I am personally SO LOOKING FORWARD to this move. I am particularly thrilled with the student teacher ratio of - OMG 14.6:1!!!! How cool is that!!!
THIS year- there will probably be 30 kids in her class. :flat
I am pleased with many aspects of my life. Being with Tarra is supreme, and I love her very much, and she has brought much to my life. She has shown me different cultures, foods, styles, and overall how to appreciate life. We plan the future together, what kind of house we want, and what kind of appliances are going in HER kitchen!! LOL She tells me I don't get to choose, since she's the cook. I'll just nod and swipe the card.. I told her as long as the fridge has a built in water and crushed ice dispenser and is not white, I am good to go. :cheese Last night we were discussing a log cabin, to have for a vacation home. Something I have always wanted ever since my grandfather built a log HOUSE. It was gorgeous.
I put a count down to Moving on my Myspace page. I am really looking forward to moving there. ( I did mention that, right?)
Bekah has settled down alot. She's not as whiny or sassy or agumentative. She just apparently forgot that mama don't play that game. She still doesnt listen for shit, but we are working on that. Part of it is the neurological stuff, and part of it is her just being a poot. She is bored though, all her neighborhood friends are off to camp and shes home with me. She has her crafts to do, and she helps me do little things around the apartment.
My mom is not well again, but she never called me back to tell me if they were putting her back in rehab to regain her strength from being in the coma. I think she should go mostly because I don't like for her to be home alone all day for hours and hours until my dad gets off work, in the current state of weakness she is in.
School starts August 20th. And then time will fly by.
I can't explain this sudden feeling of happiness. But I damn sure like it.
And Fall Ball is coming up. It's gonna be tight, but I think we will manage it. I just need to get a job so I can get the plane tickets. I was going to use my buy-one-get-the-companion-ticket-for-free but the MINIMUM price to use it , is $415.00!!! Right now, I can buy us a ticket for each of us for 206.00!!!!
So yeah I am all scowly about that part...Stupid Clearwire!!! Made me think I was getting a good deal when its just a rip off. Fuckers.
Oh well. I stil can't wait to go!!!
I'm off now to take a shower and then apply for some more jobs. I miss working. I do have an interview next Thursday with Convergys though, so I am happy about that. Bookoo money there..
Zai jian (goodbye in Chinese)
With the exception of actually needing a JOB- I can't say that there is anything else in life that I want or need right now.
And I realized too, I always said I would stay put where Bekah started Kindergarten, but now with us moving to Wisconsin in June, I am glad that I decided to give her the chance to start over. I think in her case, staying with the same kids through high school would be an unfair situation- they all remember what she was like in 1st grade when she was medicated for something she didnt have. And she wasnt fun to be with. And because of that she doesnt have any friends.
Now she gets a chance to start over with new friends, and new teachers, and a new environment.
She loves having Tarra here, and she tells me that nearly every day. She tells me also, You are happy now Mama. She's right, I am.
I am personally SO LOOKING FORWARD to this move. I am particularly thrilled with the student teacher ratio of - OMG 14.6:1!!!! How cool is that!!!
THIS year- there will probably be 30 kids in her class. :flat
I am pleased with many aspects of my life. Being with Tarra is supreme, and I love her very much, and she has brought much to my life. She has shown me different cultures, foods, styles, and overall how to appreciate life. We plan the future together, what kind of house we want, and what kind of appliances are going in HER kitchen!! LOL She tells me I don't get to choose, since she's the cook. I'll just nod and swipe the card.. I told her as long as the fridge has a built in water and crushed ice dispenser and is not white, I am good to go. :cheese Last night we were discussing a log cabin, to have for a vacation home. Something I have always wanted ever since my grandfather built a log HOUSE. It was gorgeous.
I put a count down to Moving on my Myspace page. I am really looking forward to moving there. ( I did mention that, right?)
Bekah has settled down alot. She's not as whiny or sassy or agumentative. She just apparently forgot that mama don't play that game. She still doesnt listen for shit, but we are working on that. Part of it is the neurological stuff, and part of it is her just being a poot. She is bored though, all her neighborhood friends are off to camp and shes home with me. She has her crafts to do, and she helps me do little things around the apartment.
My mom is not well again, but she never called me back to tell me if they were putting her back in rehab to regain her strength from being in the coma. I think she should go mostly because I don't like for her to be home alone all day for hours and hours until my dad gets off work, in the current state of weakness she is in.
School starts August 20th. And then time will fly by.
I can't explain this sudden feeling of happiness. But I damn sure like it.
And Fall Ball is coming up. It's gonna be tight, but I think we will manage it. I just need to get a job so I can get the plane tickets. I was going to use my buy-one-get-the-companion-ticket-for-free but the MINIMUM price to use it , is $415.00!!! Right now, I can buy us a ticket for each of us for 206.00!!!!
So yeah I am all scowly about that part...Stupid Clearwire!!! Made me think I was getting a good deal when its just a rip off. Fuckers.
Oh well. I stil can't wait to go!!!
I'm off now to take a shower and then apply for some more jobs. I miss working. I do have an interview next Thursday with Convergys though, so I am happy about that. Bookoo money there..
Zai jian (goodbye in Chinese)