choices
My little sister had a party the night before at our house, and several of her friends came. one of them, Marshall, was drunk and as we went back into the house (most of us) to sit in the basement he took severe advantage of me after everyone else left. i was so shocked and scared i couldn't move or speak. It felt like he was raping me and tearing everything I had in my life including my virginity.
after a what seemed like forever he finally got up and said he was going for a smoke. I quickly got dressed and went to the bathroom to rid of as much as he could have possibly put in me (i couldn't even walk i was shaking so bad) but I knew that there was a good chance at me getting pregnant. I called rachel and we talked, and I'm here at her house now.
I'm suppose to go to the health unit tomorrow to get the Morning after pill but i'm deciding whether or not I should take it. I know this sounds crazy but i don't want to take it.
In a way I really want this kid, (if the tests are positive)even if it fucks up my life and my family will hate me, but also I don't want to cause i'm afraid that my parents will hate me if I don't. I mean, I'm only 18 but this will happen eventualy won't it? I should stop worrying rachel keeps telling me. I'll know if I miss a period, get morning sickness, breast tenderness and violent mood swings. >_< paitence is a virtue right?
Micky-Ann