Pieces of the puzzle
For a while, pieces seem to have been falling into place about me joining psudo-ODD when I move out to CO, for the first time it seems like a piece has fallen out of place. I think Ly is holding two jobs to support the family out there and barely making due, and I would only be causing more pressure, being that I don't have a job or any real money of my own.
I read her journal while I was waiting for my dad to be ready for me to take him to work and considered things while I was driving home, and listening to and analysing the music that played. Even with only two CDs to work with (it switched over during the drive home) I think God spoke to me a lot about the situation.
He reminded me that if the leader is unable to do something, it falls to the second, and despite the clan officially being disbanded, I still see myself as the second-in-command appointee of the FR. Given that the house seems to be needing 'glue' and that's something I love to be, I'm all for the plan of still joining the household and doing what I can to ease the tensions that I know are building from what I know of the others and reading their journals.
I find it really amusing that this attack comes right on the heels of chatting with Eve about an unrelated topic, but all too applicable to this situation. I'm still planning to move out to CO come the beginning of next month, I just might have a bit of trouble with a place to 'set up shop' for a while.
Edit: after reading Ly's response I go to wash the dishes, turn on my music player and the first two songs that come out, You're The One That I Want - Grease, and Thankful - Kelly Clarkson. Pretty clear message to my ears at least.
In happier news, I can hear the 'tic-tac' of Jamie's typewriter (why she uses a typewriter when I'm pretty sure even Arcion has his own computer even though he can't use it, I don't know), as she writes the two or three different AMW's that came to me while I tried to rest after getting home.
I read her journal while I was waiting for my dad to be ready for me to take him to work and considered things while I was driving home, and listening to and analysing the music that played. Even with only two CDs to work with (it switched over during the drive home) I think God spoke to me a lot about the situation.
He reminded me that if the leader is unable to do something, it falls to the second, and despite the clan officially being disbanded, I still see myself as the second-in-command appointee of the FR. Given that the house seems to be needing 'glue' and that's something I love to be, I'm all for the plan of still joining the household and doing what I can to ease the tensions that I know are building from what I know of the others and reading their journals.
I find it really amusing that this attack comes right on the heels of chatting with Eve about an unrelated topic, but all too applicable to this situation. I'm still planning to move out to CO come the beginning of next month, I just might have a bit of trouble with a place to 'set up shop' for a while.
Edit: after reading Ly's response I go to wash the dishes, turn on my music player and the first two songs that come out, You're The One That I Want - Grease, and Thankful - Kelly Clarkson. Pretty clear message to my ears at least.
In happier news, I can hear the 'tic-tac' of Jamie's typewriter (why she uses a typewriter when I'm pretty sure even Arcion has his own computer even though he can't use it, I don't know), as she writes the two or three different AMW's that came to me while I tried to rest after getting home.