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so i havent heard from my lover in about 4 days, kind of bummed really, but i understand hes been really busy lately, but still... i just miss him... and i love him, but i just wish i had more alcohol to drown my sorrows in... well lets see, i have to be gone for 4 days straight, i dont wanna go... but its so i can earn some extra money, maybe i can get my nails done again but i dunno... im wierd i havent been too sociable to people like i usually am... but it cuz im still wallowing, i still think its wierd how it didnt phase me he was leaving until that morning... i know you all are gettin sick of hearin about that, so in other news,
uhm... i leave for Yakima on Monday i gotta get to a pet boarding place where he can stay for 4 days, i dunno why we all have to go to Yakima... the army goes to Yakima for training but civies do... and why the hell cant we do the damn training here? why do we have to go to Yakima is still beyond me...oi well anyway uhm im just hangin around... feeling the cold wind of death upon my shoulder i fear im going to be more emotionless, like i did when i was back in Germany, but thats ok right, i mean if im emotionless no guys are gonna wanna talk to me, i dont even wanna see guys they make me sick, specially when they look at me and whistle, I AM NOT A PIECE OF MEAT ON THE SHELF I AM NOT MODEL-LIKE I AM JUST ME... A NOBODY.
uhm... i leave for Yakima on Monday i gotta get to a pet boarding place where he can stay for 4 days, i dunno why we all have to go to Yakima... the army goes to Yakima for training but civies do... and why the hell cant we do the damn training here? why do we have to go to Yakima is still beyond me...oi well anyway uhm im just hangin around... feeling the cold wind of death upon my shoulder i fear im going to be more emotionless, like i did when i was back in Germany, but thats ok right, i mean if im emotionless no guys are gonna wanna talk to me, i dont even wanna see guys they make me sick, specially when they look at me and whistle, I AM NOT A PIECE OF MEAT ON THE SHELF I AM NOT MODEL-LIKE I AM JUST ME... A NOBODY.