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i'm thinking it's maybe time for an update.
uuuh. it's christmas eve and christmas is tomorrow. it went by way too fast. junior year's already half way over. only 6 more months and everyone's gonna be gone. and that scares me.
but anyway. back to the christmas spirit. we can worry about all my friends leaving me another time. so yeah i'm going with my aunt and cousin to jan and tom's house. they're kyrsten's aunt and uncle i'm not even really related to them but i'm still tagging along. then going to church with my aunt my cousin my mom and my sister. how awkward. i can't remember the last time i was with BOTH my mom and my aunt. well homecoming i think. but anyway. she asked me to stay at her house awhile ago but i doubt i will. then tomorrow's christmas and i get to give everyone their gifts and open presents here and then christmas dinner with the family. thats going to be depressing too. first christmas without my dad. and my mom and my aunt and i all in the same room again. amazing. i'm excited to exchange gifts with tonya and mark though. be pretty fun. ehh marks just stopping by though to drop it off bc he pretty much hates me and doesn't want me to come over EVEN THOUGH his mother asked for me too. hah. whatta guy. that's going pretty nicely. nah thats a little sarcasm. we don't "connect" as we say and don't see eachother enough. it's not working out and it's not going to and there's really nothing either of us can do about it. he's leaving in august and if i continue "dating him" then it's just going to get harder but then again i like him just that much to keep trying. i think he's pushing me away. i just don't want to deal with anything anymore. lately i've been getting annoyed easily and in horrible moods and i don't know what's wrong. i'm so sick of school and the people at northern and not making good grades and ugh everything in my life right now just isn't going good. but i do love tonya marie because we can always have a good time and make the things that annoy me go away. even if it consists of her and i drinking in her basement and me puking the rest of the night. good times.
k well. have a merry christmas. oh and a happy new year too. my aunt's having a party so i might possibly have some people over. i'm supposedly bartenting for her and their could be a psychic? who knows.
MERRY CHRISTMAS.
& I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and s t a r e at you.
uuuh. it's christmas eve and christmas is tomorrow. it went by way too fast. junior year's already half way over. only 6 more months and everyone's gonna be gone. and that scares me.
but anyway. back to the christmas spirit. we can worry about all my friends leaving me another time. so yeah i'm going with my aunt and cousin to jan and tom's house. they're kyrsten's aunt and uncle i'm not even really related to them but i'm still tagging along. then going to church with my aunt my cousin my mom and my sister. how awkward. i can't remember the last time i was with BOTH my mom and my aunt. well homecoming i think. but anyway. she asked me to stay at her house awhile ago but i doubt i will. then tomorrow's christmas and i get to give everyone their gifts and open presents here and then christmas dinner with the family. thats going to be depressing too. first christmas without my dad. and my mom and my aunt and i all in the same room again. amazing. i'm excited to exchange gifts with tonya and mark though. be pretty fun. ehh marks just stopping by though to drop it off bc he pretty much hates me and doesn't want me to come over EVEN THOUGH his mother asked for me too. hah. whatta guy. that's going pretty nicely. nah thats a little sarcasm. we don't "connect" as we say and don't see eachother enough. it's not working out and it's not going to and there's really nothing either of us can do about it. he's leaving in august and if i continue "dating him" then it's just going to get harder but then again i like him just that much to keep trying. i think he's pushing me away. i just don't want to deal with anything anymore. lately i've been getting annoyed easily and in horrible moods and i don't know what's wrong. i'm so sick of school and the people at northern and not making good grades and ugh everything in my life right now just isn't going good. but i do love tonya marie because we can always have a good time and make the things that annoy me go away. even if it consists of her and i drinking in her basement and me puking the rest of the night. good times.
k well. have a merry christmas. oh and a happy new year too. my aunt's having a party so i might possibly have some people over. i'm supposedly bartenting for her and their could be a psychic? who knows.
MERRY CHRISTMAS.
& I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and s t a r e at you.