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well my trip to tennessee wasssss great. it was so good to be back i miss it so much. just driving down the roads i used to drive down and being with old friends and my family. i visited my old house, that no one lives in. it was depressing though, but, i love tennessee. it was like 60 degrees there and pretty outside and ahhh i miss itttt.
we know the main reason i went down there, thanksgiving. which was amazing, being with family and good food, you know. but the other reason, along with seeing old friends, was to spread my dad's ashes. which, sunday was his birthday so we all went up to the smokies and found a pretty spot by the rocks and the water. my uncle wrote a little prayer and my cousin read it. as soon and she started i just broke down. and i read what my mom told me to read and i read what i wanted to say and it was really hard and i couldn't bring myself to put my hand into his ashes at first but when i did, i spread them into the water and now his ashes will run all through the mountains. it was very hard and i cried and everyone cried but i had to do it. it was i guess, closure. i feel better now that his ashes aren't just sitting in a closet but, my mom should've been there. it should've been me and her and my sister, but i had to do it alone. not alone my aunts my uncle and cousins were there but, my mother should've been there.
on a happier note, i was really glad to hang out with chantel and meredith and matt and seeing jessica and a couple other people. i miss everyone so much.
but, i'm glad to be back home. i missed tonya & mark. :)
Who you'd be today - Kenny Chesney
Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go
I see your smile, I see your face
I hear you laughin' in the rain
Still can't believe you're gone.
It ain't fair you died too young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I been through
Just knowin' no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder
Who you'd be today.
Would you see the world, would you chase your dreams
Settle down with a family
I wonder what would you name your babies
Somedays the sky's so blue
I feel like I can talk to you
And I know it might sound crazy.
It ain't fair you died too young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I been through
Just knowin' no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder
Who you'd be today.
Today, today, today
Today, today, today.
Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
The only thing that gives me hope
Is I know I'll see you again some day
Someday, someday...
we know the main reason i went down there, thanksgiving. which was amazing, being with family and good food, you know. but the other reason, along with seeing old friends, was to spread my dad's ashes. which, sunday was his birthday so we all went up to the smokies and found a pretty spot by the rocks and the water. my uncle wrote a little prayer and my cousin read it. as soon and she started i just broke down. and i read what my mom told me to read and i read what i wanted to say and it was really hard and i couldn't bring myself to put my hand into his ashes at first but when i did, i spread them into the water and now his ashes will run all through the mountains. it was very hard and i cried and everyone cried but i had to do it. it was i guess, closure. i feel better now that his ashes aren't just sitting in a closet but, my mom should've been there. it should've been me and her and my sister, but i had to do it alone. not alone my aunts my uncle and cousins were there but, my mother should've been there.
on a happier note, i was really glad to hang out with chantel and meredith and matt and seeing jessica and a couple other people. i miss everyone so much.
but, i'm glad to be back home. i missed tonya & mark. :)
Who you'd be today - Kenny Chesney
Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go
I see your smile, I see your face
I hear you laughin' in the rain
Still can't believe you're gone.
It ain't fair you died too young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I been through
Just knowin' no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder
Who you'd be today.
Would you see the world, would you chase your dreams
Settle down with a family
I wonder what would you name your babies
Somedays the sky's so blue
I feel like I can talk to you
And I know it might sound crazy.
It ain't fair you died too young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I been through
Just knowin' no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder
Who you'd be today.
Today, today, today
Today, today, today.
Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
The only thing that gives me hope
Is I know I'll see you again some day
Someday, someday...