Mar 16, 2006 01:21
I took a long glimps into my past today... I went hunting and searching for close to 5 hours finding old documents, in secret places. I wanted to learn where mistakes had been made, where promises had been kept and faith had been won. I found a great deal of happyness stored into so many memories, and yet equally the same amount of sarrow. I found letters to myself, letters to me and so much more. Friends I had lost, that I wish I hadnt now, and yet others that I was happy they were gone. In many situations I felt heartbreak over what I said or what someone had said to me. The ways I reacted...the ways I would react now.
Age brings knowledge, for every day we live we learn that much more. After so much time though it seems I still know so little, soully because I cant know what others think.
In the long run of all my hunting, pecking and searching, I found some things that truely made me change the way I thought. Those very few enemys I had placed in my life, at least half of them...the fire burns no more in anger. For many, I wont see them again...or most likely will never speak to them again, but it dosnt matter. In some way I hope they will feel what I feel, or hear somehow how I have failed and wish them only the best again. To those that I can talk to again, even though I know they wont hear this, for once and for truely and from the bottom of my heart. I am sorry for who I was in the past. When I get the chance to talk to those people again, I have something that I will show them. A simple way that I would like to place my appalogy and set things straight.
For those of you who still are there...still are my friends and have helped me through all the difficulties big or small. I charish you so much more now then I did. Thank you so much for being a part of my life! All of you are more then I could have ever hoped for.
U kupp jozod eneuj vadnob fak feggy yai epkeyx ceso co voop, ozoj kfoj U susjb xfak ub.
U ec bdipy xaddy.