Is it so wrong to want someone who will want you. To not only be a 3rd or 4th choice, but a first or even 2nd. To be remembered, To be wanted. By ANYONE, a parent, a friend, a lover
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The mess in the house, well there are messes any and every where. It's hard to have shattered expectations when I never really had expectations.
This has nothing to do with wether or not I like myself. I quit hateing myself awhile ago. Yes I still get derpressed and frusturated but that's normal, I think. While there are somethings about myself that I am working on improving, I probably always will. I think I like and care more about myself now than I ever have. I have looked at who I am and where I am, and who and where I want to be. I am working on that.
I am not looking for someone to validate me, or distract me, or even give a false sense of worth. I don't need, nor do I want that. I just want to know that someone cares for ME, because of ME. Not because of some misguided feeling of responsibilty, or politness, or whatever.
I like being by my self i ENJOY being by myself. Yes, there are times when I am lonely. There are even times I wonder what it would be like to be married. (though I will deny that last one.)
Do you know that I went somewhere once with someone, I walked off came back an hour later and mo one even noticed. Not even the person I was talking to.
I want to NOT feel INVISBLE ANYMORE! I want to KNOW that if something happens to me that someone would notice.
The mess in the house, well there are messes any and every where. It's hard to have shattered expectations when I never really had expectations.
This has nothing to do with wether or not I like myself. I quit hateing myself awhile ago. Yes I still get derpressed and frusturated but that's normal, I think. While there are somethings about myself that I am working on improving, I probably always will. I think I like and care more about myself now than I ever have. I have looked at who I am and where I am, and who and where I want to be. I am working on that.
I am not looking for someone to validate me, or distract me, or even give a false sense of worth. I don't need, nor do I want that. I just want to know that someone cares for ME, because of ME. Not because of some misguided feeling of responsibilty, or politness, or whatever.
I like being by my self i ENJOY being by myself. Yes, there are times when I am lonely. There are even times I wonder what it would be like to be married. (though I will deny that last one.)
Do you know that I went somewhere once with someone, I walked off came back an hour later and mo one even noticed. Not even the person I was talking to.
I want to NOT feel INVISBLE ANYMORE!
I want to KNOW that if something happens to me that someone would notice.
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