rants.
suburbanized selfish children. thats all i see, thats all i read. all thinking they are somehow high classed because they watch movies and read books that they believe make them seem intelligent to watch read. knowing in the back of thier mind that the movie isnt all its cracked up to be, "cause if i make it a big hype about it over and over maybe, just maybe i can convince myself this is fun, this is what separates me from the other kids." all thinking they are somehow high classed cause they can go get wasted like the big kids, "cause maybe, just maybe i can convince myself this is fun, to drown my problems in substance." all thinking they are somehow high classed because they can make fun of those kids who shop at those certain stores like big name stores, "because maybe, just maybe if i can believe that i am above caring about my close (but making fun of those who do) will separate me from the those other kids who call the other kids poseurs. because this is all that matters. i want to be different, i am different, i am better...really i am, these things make me me. right?" trying so hard to convince themselves they are themselves fighting to find the right music, right close, right ideas, right movies, right art, right opinions, not opinions for them, no way, opinions to show to others, so that hopefully they agree. drowning in their youth. very little are paying attention to the world around them. people being trendy liberals just cause they want to stick it to the man, people being conservatives because their parents are and they never really paid attention. i understand that people do care, people have reasons, good reasons for why and where they stand. but not enough. what am i? i ask my 16 year old self. im neither, i am a kid, as for now and probably the future i am an independant.