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i dont understand. good conversation is so important to me, but its not needed. i always thought thats ALL that mattered. i had a defined view of what being cultured was, and an intracate system worked out in my head. why that didnt sound right from the get go i dont know how. i mean it was a reasonably good way of doing things i guess. to give everyone a chance to get to know them i guess. i never judged anyone on what music they listened to or what they wore, at least i wasnt that stupid. the problem was that i judged them in the first place. i have always been to conserned about who i like and who i dont like. i just dont know what to think anymore. i mean im fine the really important stuff. life is great, i have a beautifal new nephew at the moment, and i couldnt be more proud of my sister and my family. its just it stinks how i fit into the stereotype of a typical teenager. i dont like this whole regrouping yourself thing, well its not all bad. its just full of loose mends and dead ends. heh ,cute, that rhymed.
i found out i'm playing at some youth retreat in baton rouge with remembering december, i hope its close to the furnace (i've never been) cause i'd love to go to a show there. speaking of baton rouge music, some old samedullstar came on.
i want to do this thing where i go and talk to alot of those people close to me, i mean just have a good sit down and talk. to haha wow "find myself" no not really at all. just to get views on different things and just try to connect with a few old friends i've lost touch with and will eventually lose touch with.