Jul 14, 2007 11:46
Dear Madison,
I thought you deserve to know how you came about. One night your dad that would be myself (robert john perez) met your mother(jessica erin callory) in a apartment complex park for the first time.How unromantic that sounds that night I took my first step towards falling in love . :-) Despite how nervous I was lovely,I still knew she was absolutly beautiful. We dated and we are still dating and the time I have with your mother is absolutly priceless.Just know madison there are alot of unwanted children out there, you would never be in that catagory. Madison you would inherit your mothers breath taking smile and her eyes, (those make me melt) the freckles she hates but I love,and most of all her laugh. I never told her your mother that everytime she laughs she makes everything better for me. I could have the worst day ever and your mom would make it better with her laugh. So as I write to you madison with tears running down my eyes,my little girl I will always have you with me,I will never forget you ...im sorry I cant protect you..please dont hate me. I should justify why we are doing this ...and despite how selfish this sounds please try to understand we didnt want to bring you into a world we ourselves havent conquered and made safe for you. I need to work on my education and career just like your mom. We want you madison we do..just not before we know we can give you the world. Madison everytime I look at a litttle girl I will see you in her eyes AND IT WILL KILLME .A DAD SHOULD BE ABLE TO PROTECT YOU AND IM SORRY I CANT.IVE CRIED THE LAST COUPLE OF NIGHTS THINKING ABOUT THIS , JUST KNOW I LOVE YOU MADISON ,MY LITTLE GIRL, WE WILL MEET ONE DAY AND THAT DAY WILL BE THE HAPPIESTDAY OF MY LIFE. ONE DAY.......ONE DAY...... LOVE YOUR DAD