SPN/J2 BIG BANG: DEAD YET AGAIN (SAM/DEAN, NC-17) III

[arysteia]

Fic title: Dead Yet Again
Author name: arysteia
Genre: wincest
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Rating: NC-17
Word count: 21, 000
Warnings/Spoilers: Explicit sex. Some violence, but not more than you'd expect from an episode. No spoilers.
Summary: Sam and Dean Winchester are at odds while dealing with a seemingly routine haunted mansion. As usual, nothing is

Comments

[killabeez]

So great to read this in its finished form.

I don't think I told you before, but the part where Sam forces the issue--

"Don't worry," Sam whispers furiously. "I'm not going to embarrass you. Not going to puke up my guts for the world to see. I know you don't show your dysfunctions to strangers. But that doesn't mean you don't have them."

"Sam!"

"Do you have them, Dean?"

"Yes, I have them!" Dean hisses. "All right? I have them. Can we go now?"

--and the confrontation outside that follows is my very favorite part of this story. It's one of the best, most in-character acknowledgments of more-than-brotherly love I've ever read. I love that Dean calls his attraction to his brother a dysfunction, and I love the way they confront it without actually saying it. The way it escalates outside on the sidewalk reads absolutely true to me, and gives me goosebumps.

"The free porn show in your head's made you crazy, hasn't it?"

Such a Dean thing to say! And then I love that when Sam gives up, Dean steps up and makes himself vulnerable. He can't stand to see Sam defeated. This whole scene is just perfect.

[arysteia]

At long last I've finally had enough sleep to reply coherently to comments. Gawd, this week at work has been a writeoff.

I'm so glad you got to read this again, once I'd smoothed out all the kinks. It was the same with my beta, I wanted to clap hands at the end and say, "Look! I finally fixed all those niggles!" A couple really did come to me right at the last second, and added insult to injury by suddenly seeming completely obvious.

Along the way somewhere, I really fell hard for !Sam and !Dean and their story, and it became a bit of a battle not to be self indulgent and to get back to the "real" plot. I'm glad you identify and enjoy this scene in particular, because for me it was the real heart of the whole thing, this and the bit later where Dean makes his peace with being the big brother. Much as I love cracky happy stories -- and I enjoy a scorching pwp as much as the next fangirl -- I do have trouble with easy!incest fics. It should be a battle, especially for Dean. Your comments here mean a lot to me.