Christmassy? Gratuitous rant - feel free to skip.
It's weird I'm better on the Prozac and for the first time in years I AM actually feeling quite christmassy. Having said that - I'm dreading the big few days themselves! and I don't want to be part of them. I have the seasonal spirit, but I'm sad, too.
I have to have lunch with my aunt and uncle and his family. I want to restrict - but I know I'll end up purging anyway, but I'll have to leave SO much time it won't be any good. I hate holiday meals. We were going to be at home with mum and me cooking together. I like that, but that was changed when Dad was forced to change his mind about coming home - so he's avoiding that situation.
I'll be with mum and other family - but not Dad. He's spending it with his bitch OCD control freak girlfriend!! I know he doesn't want to. Since he and mum are still very close he wanted to spend it with her, my aunt (his sister) and ME (mostly - although that sounds arrogant - I know he did). She's managed to persuade him to spend christmas with HER parents up north. Last Christmas he spent it with her and he admitted to one of my aunts that "he hadn't enjoyed it at all" - I'm really worried about him. So many people right from distant friends, workmen and close family have randomly commented that he doesn't seem happy any more. I hope he's happy with his new woman - but the more I see of of her the more I see a control-freak with food issues who, to be honest is dull and very much less intelligent than he is. F***k knows what they find to talk about.
I have to have lunch with my aunt and uncle and his family. I want to restrict - but I know I'll end up purging anyway, but I'll have to leave SO much time it won't be any good. I hate holiday meals. We were going to be at home with mum and me cooking together. I like that, but that was changed when Dad was forced to change his mind about coming home - so he's avoiding that situation.
I'll be with mum and other family - but not Dad. He's spending it with his bitch OCD control freak girlfriend!! I know he doesn't want to. Since he and mum are still very close he wanted to spend it with her, my aunt (his sister) and ME (mostly - although that sounds arrogant - I know he did). She's managed to persuade him to spend christmas with HER parents up north. Last Christmas he spent it with her and he admitted to one of my aunts that "he hadn't enjoyed it at all" - I'm really worried about him. So many people right from distant friends, workmen and close family have randomly commented that he doesn't seem happy any more. I hope he's happy with his new woman - but the more I see of of her the more I see a control-freak with food issues who, to be honest is dull and very much less intelligent than he is. F***k knows what they find to talk about.