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I just made my first coffee in my new coffeemaker. It was WAY too strong. Guess I'll only need the one cup to keep me going today.
Here's what's going on w/ mah toof:
The filling I'd gotten over 5 years ago apparently leaked stuff in and an infection was created. This weakened my tooth and was what caused all that pain I had about a month ago. And that's why it fractured the other day. The fracture went down into the nerve tissue, which is what caused the infection. The dentist told me that nerve signals travel all the way down the root and that's why an abcess was starting to form between my roots. Cool, huh? Yes, but no at the same time.
I wish you could see the X-ray; it was really cool.
So here comes the part where I started crying in the dentist's chair:
I need to either get the tooth extracted or get a root canal.
Tooth extraction: About $200-some and a Toothless Ashley
Root Canal: $1500-1800
HOW RIDICULOUS. It's a stupid tooth - one of the smallest parts of the human body - and it takes almost $2000 to suck the nerve tissue out and fill and cap the tooth?!
I got approved for a dental credit program up to $1,000 but that leaves the rest up to my parents and I. I called them lastnight and just kept bawling and trying to talk. My mom finally stopped me and said, "I can't hear you because you're crying at the same time. I understand that this is a big deal to you, but it's nothing to get so upset over!" My parents, the ones who have always had financial problems, and I, who inherited that non-genetic trait from them, and they're telling me NOT TO WORRY ABOUT MONEY.
I have a feeling the tooth is coming out and that makes me want to cry again. I could get an implant but it'd have to be within months of getting it extracted and it apparently will cost about $3,000 total. Yeah. Looks like I'll be going toothless for the rest of my life. It's a good thing the teeth around the empty spot will shift in and look nasty and my top tooth might get messed up too because there's nothing to chomp down on.
I'm only 20. I'm too young to start looking like a hillbilly. I hope you'll all still love me.
/end rant
I have to call Ottawa Creek about the sublease for next year. I hope that goes smoothly. I also need to decide what the heck I'm doing for the summer.
In a perfect world, I'd move in with Jayme as planned, because that'd be pretty much perfect. I love Jayme, my stuff would be across the hall from the apartment I'll be moving into in the fall, and I'd still be in the Grand Rapids area. If I do this, I'll probably want to find another/a different job.
Lastnight both Rachel and Mom reminded me that I could put my stuff up in storage and move to Rachel's for the summer. I'd LOVE to, don't get me wrong...I miss my sister so so much already...but I don't know ANYONE in that area of Wisconsin besides my cousins and Sister Therese, and I'd get really lonely. The positives? I'd be about 2 hours from home and probably not far from Katie at Manito-Wish. I'd have to try to find a job for 3 months while there. That could be tough.
Mom also reminded that I could move home, and even if I didn't work for the summer, I'd still be saving money by not having to pay rent. The idea of not working for three months is SO tempting. I wonder if I could do some kind of freelance work to just cover any expenses...
The negatives of moving away from Grand Rapids for the summer:
-No road trips to see friends (including this Canada trip I was so excited about)
-No concerts (except maybe Lifest if I moved to WI)
-No Mars Hill (I suppose I could listen online)
-I'd miss my Community like whoa
-No visiting my people at Spring Hill
-Not hanging out with the people still in the area that I was so excited about hanging out with
BAHHHHHHH.
As you can see, I've got a lot to think about in the next few days. Luckily, I won't have to move until the end of May because Jess's lease isn't up til the 28th. But what I do from there is all in God's hands.
Last summer, I wanted to stay here so badly, and it didn't work out. I'm really upset that the same thing seems to be happening now.
Time to get ready to work a double today!! Come to Great Lakes and give me lots o' tips! har har har.
thefridayfive:
1) Do you like your birth-name? Why?
Sometimes I think it's really pretty, but when I think about how unoriginal it is I tend to think it's quite lame. Do you know how many "Ashley"s were born in 1986?! I was born in the first quarter of the year, though, so all those that followed are just imitators. The fact that my mom got the name from a soap opera actress/character doesn't do much for me, either. I prefer being called "Ash" these days, not sure why.
2) If you could change your name to anything else, what would it be?
I always say I wish my parents would have just named me "Ruth" instead of making it my middle name. I'd love to be a "Ruthie". It's a lot more original than Ashley. My Grandma Bovin's name was Ruth, her daughter's name was Ruthalene...seriously. I should have just been Ruth! I can't really see me as anything else, though. How about you tell me what other names you could see me as?
3) What names would you consider giving your children?
Girl: Cadence, Esther, Mae, Emma, Eleanor, Novalee, something original
Boy: Caden, August, ...I have a list I just can't remember what I put on it. Something original.
4) If you had a band, what would you name it, and why?
Mariposa, or something. I don't know. Band names are getting so unoriginal. I might as well just call it, "The Ashley Bovin Project"...though I don't like my last name.
5) Is there a name that you completely hate? Why?
Shithead. (I'm serious) My cousin and her friend (they're both teachers) were talking about a student her friend had whose name was Shithead. It's such a pretty name, really (Shih-theed), and one I'd consider for a future daughter if I could find a good alternative spelling. I like it alot. But who in God's green earth would give their children a name spelled like that? I'm sure it wasn't an accident. Jerk parents.
Here's what's going on w/ mah toof:
The filling I'd gotten over 5 years ago apparently leaked stuff in and an infection was created. This weakened my tooth and was what caused all that pain I had about a month ago. And that's why it fractured the other day. The fracture went down into the nerve tissue, which is what caused the infection. The dentist told me that nerve signals travel all the way down the root and that's why an abcess was starting to form between my roots. Cool, huh? Yes, but no at the same time.
I wish you could see the X-ray; it was really cool.
So here comes the part where I started crying in the dentist's chair:
I need to either get the tooth extracted or get a root canal.
Tooth extraction: About $200-some and a Toothless Ashley
Root Canal: $1500-1800
HOW RIDICULOUS. It's a stupid tooth - one of the smallest parts of the human body - and it takes almost $2000 to suck the nerve tissue out and fill and cap the tooth?!
I got approved for a dental credit program up to $1,000 but that leaves the rest up to my parents and I. I called them lastnight and just kept bawling and trying to talk. My mom finally stopped me and said, "I can't hear you because you're crying at the same time. I understand that this is a big deal to you, but it's nothing to get so upset over!" My parents, the ones who have always had financial problems, and I, who inherited that non-genetic trait from them, and they're telling me NOT TO WORRY ABOUT MONEY.
I have a feeling the tooth is coming out and that makes me want to cry again. I could get an implant but it'd have to be within months of getting it extracted and it apparently will cost about $3,000 total. Yeah. Looks like I'll be going toothless for the rest of my life. It's a good thing the teeth around the empty spot will shift in and look nasty and my top tooth might get messed up too because there's nothing to chomp down on.
I'm only 20. I'm too young to start looking like a hillbilly. I hope you'll all still love me.
/end rant
I have to call Ottawa Creek about the sublease for next year. I hope that goes smoothly. I also need to decide what the heck I'm doing for the summer.
In a perfect world, I'd move in with Jayme as planned, because that'd be pretty much perfect. I love Jayme, my stuff would be across the hall from the apartment I'll be moving into in the fall, and I'd still be in the Grand Rapids area. If I do this, I'll probably want to find another/a different job.
Lastnight both Rachel and Mom reminded me that I could put my stuff up in storage and move to Rachel's for the summer. I'd LOVE to, don't get me wrong...I miss my sister so so much already...but I don't know ANYONE in that area of Wisconsin besides my cousins and Sister Therese, and I'd get really lonely. The positives? I'd be about 2 hours from home and probably not far from Katie at Manito-Wish. I'd have to try to find a job for 3 months while there. That could be tough.
Mom also reminded that I could move home, and even if I didn't work for the summer, I'd still be saving money by not having to pay rent. The idea of not working for three months is SO tempting. I wonder if I could do some kind of freelance work to just cover any expenses...
The negatives of moving away from Grand Rapids for the summer:
-No road trips to see friends (including this Canada trip I was so excited about)
-No concerts (except maybe Lifest if I moved to WI)
-No Mars Hill (I suppose I could listen online)
-I'd miss my Community like whoa
-No visiting my people at Spring Hill
-Not hanging out with the people still in the area that I was so excited about hanging out with
BAHHHHHHH.
As you can see, I've got a lot to think about in the next few days. Luckily, I won't have to move until the end of May because Jess's lease isn't up til the 28th. But what I do from there is all in God's hands.
Last summer, I wanted to stay here so badly, and it didn't work out. I'm really upset that the same thing seems to be happening now.
Time to get ready to work a double today!! Come to Great Lakes and give me lots o' tips! har har har.
thefridayfive:
1) Do you like your birth-name? Why?
Sometimes I think it's really pretty, but when I think about how unoriginal it is I tend to think it's quite lame. Do you know how many "Ashley"s were born in 1986?! I was born in the first quarter of the year, though, so all those that followed are just imitators. The fact that my mom got the name from a soap opera actress/character doesn't do much for me, either. I prefer being called "Ash" these days, not sure why.
2) If you could change your name to anything else, what would it be?
I always say I wish my parents would have just named me "Ruth" instead of making it my middle name. I'd love to be a "Ruthie". It's a lot more original than Ashley. My Grandma Bovin's name was Ruth, her daughter's name was Ruthalene...seriously. I should have just been Ruth! I can't really see me as anything else, though. How about you tell me what other names you could see me as?
3) What names would you consider giving your children?
Girl: Cadence, Esther, Mae, Emma, Eleanor, Novalee, something original
Boy: Caden, August, ...I have a list I just can't remember what I put on it. Something original.
4) If you had a band, what would you name it, and why?
Mariposa, or something. I don't know. Band names are getting so unoriginal. I might as well just call it, "The Ashley Bovin Project"...though I don't like my last name.
5) Is there a name that you completely hate? Why?
Shithead. (I'm serious) My cousin and her friend (they're both teachers) were talking about a student her friend had whose name was Shithead. It's such a pretty name, really (Shih-theed), and one I'd consider for a future daughter if I could find a good alternative spelling. I like it alot. But who in God's green earth would give their children a name spelled like that? I'm sure it wasn't an accident. Jerk parents.