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Hello to the masses, despite everything and anything I miss all of you (you know who you are,) maybe I just miss who we used to be and the fun we had together, but change is inevitable and must be welcomed. School is nothing but homework, seriously why honors college why? I do meet a cool person everyday though and Tsunami Bomb yeseterday was fun, I met Katy's cool new friends and Becca and Kim and their entourage was their.
Daniel and I are over in that sense but neither one of us is really sure whether it is or not, we almost got back together today at his house and then he decided against it (even though it was his idea to get back together) and I don't really know what I want, so I was upset and then I thought about things and we talked and I felt it was for the best, I don't wanna be friends with benefits but I don't wanna have that obsessive summer relationship again, and he says we need to communicate more and be together if and when we can but no labels, and I like labels I wanna call him my boyfriend or my friend but nothing in between please. And if its meant to be then itll happen again and if not then that's life but i can't sit around and wonder, eh I must take my mom's advice and remember that time will always tell, Patience is a virtue, my friends, HONESTLY! Eh, it sucks when the person you really love is a real adult who makes life altering decisions everyday and all I do is go to school. Oh, by the way I decided to change my major to Business Administration - Finance, it'll get me enough money to help support a family (which is really all I want in life - damn 1950s female)!
Ramblings, ramblings, ramblings. I feel like I'm on another planet, I don't smoke pot anymore, or drink, I guess those days are over all there is now are the cigarettes - i really like the cigarettes, but i get caught smoking like every single day.
And ladies, phones are a two way streak, people change, no one should have to be friends with anyone if they don't feel it anymore, but i refuse to be bitter over lost happiness because it'll always be in my heart and as Steph always reminds me "Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened" and I'll be there for every single one of you through thick and thin, feel free to call, and Em if you would tell me your new address - I said I'd never forget your birthday. Steph, Katy and Sarah I'll take your adresses too - random college letters? Sound good? And Christy - you are badass, and always beautiful! Well, I must go I think Daniels calling and I still have 100 pages of the Iliad to read!
Much Love,
Esther
PS Vicky rocks my socks, hehe! I'll pick you up any MWF just holla!
Daniel and I are over in that sense but neither one of us is really sure whether it is or not, we almost got back together today at his house and then he decided against it (even though it was his idea to get back together) and I don't really know what I want, so I was upset and then I thought about things and we talked and I felt it was for the best, I don't wanna be friends with benefits but I don't wanna have that obsessive summer relationship again, and he says we need to communicate more and be together if and when we can but no labels, and I like labels I wanna call him my boyfriend or my friend but nothing in between please. And if its meant to be then itll happen again and if not then that's life but i can't sit around and wonder, eh I must take my mom's advice and remember that time will always tell, Patience is a virtue, my friends, HONESTLY! Eh, it sucks when the person you really love is a real adult who makes life altering decisions everyday and all I do is go to school. Oh, by the way I decided to change my major to Business Administration - Finance, it'll get me enough money to help support a family (which is really all I want in life - damn 1950s female)!
Ramblings, ramblings, ramblings. I feel like I'm on another planet, I don't smoke pot anymore, or drink, I guess those days are over all there is now are the cigarettes - i really like the cigarettes, but i get caught smoking like every single day.
And ladies, phones are a two way streak, people change, no one should have to be friends with anyone if they don't feel it anymore, but i refuse to be bitter over lost happiness because it'll always be in my heart and as Steph always reminds me "Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened" and I'll be there for every single one of you through thick and thin, feel free to call, and Em if you would tell me your new address - I said I'd never forget your birthday. Steph, Katy and Sarah I'll take your adresses too - random college letters? Sound good? And Christy - you are badass, and always beautiful! Well, I must go I think Daniels calling and I still have 100 pages of the Iliad to read!
Much Love,
Esther
PS Vicky rocks my socks, hehe! I'll pick you up any MWF just holla!