Sometimes you just need to cry
I was really upset with him. I just wanted a break from him. I didn't want to tell him I love him. I couldn't get any words to escape my mouth.
We sat down and talked yesterday. I wasn't prepared. He felt bad all day, he apologized, but it still didn't feel like enough. He kept asking me to tell him what was on my mind. I didn't have the heart to tell him. Then suddenly I couldn't think anymore, I didn't want to leave him, I didn't want to tell him that I keep a lot of emotions in, I just wanted to cry.
I don't even know what came over me. I started to cry, he got upset, he kept asking questions. I didn't know what was wrong anymore, so how could I tell him. I kept saying, Nothing. That's all that could escape my mouth. He just held me tight and let me cry and didn't ask any more questions. I cried and cried until I almost couldn't breathe. It felt good to cry, to get everything I bottled up out. He kissed my remaining tears and told me I was beautiful. I know what I look like when I cry, my eyes are red and puffy and my face turns pink. I smiled, as I had snot coming out my nose, he laughed and said he really had to go to the bathroom, which made me laugh and then everything was ok. I felt ok. I felt better. I love him. I'm glad he understands me or tries to when he doesn't.
We sat down and talked yesterday. I wasn't prepared. He felt bad all day, he apologized, but it still didn't feel like enough. He kept asking me to tell him what was on my mind. I didn't have the heart to tell him. Then suddenly I couldn't think anymore, I didn't want to leave him, I didn't want to tell him that I keep a lot of emotions in, I just wanted to cry.
I don't even know what came over me. I started to cry, he got upset, he kept asking questions. I didn't know what was wrong anymore, so how could I tell him. I kept saying, Nothing. That's all that could escape my mouth. He just held me tight and let me cry and didn't ask any more questions. I cried and cried until I almost couldn't breathe. It felt good to cry, to get everything I bottled up out. He kissed my remaining tears and told me I was beautiful. I know what I look like when I cry, my eyes are red and puffy and my face turns pink. I smiled, as I had snot coming out my nose, he laughed and said he really had to go to the bathroom, which made me laugh and then everything was ok. I felt ok. I felt better. I love him. I'm glad he understands me or tries to when he doesn't.