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[aruena]

the urge to be alone splashes over me more and more frequently. i do not know what to do about it. and since i do not have enough solitary time on daily basis, i cannot tell the difference - is it because i want total detachment and permanent solitude, or this is just a need for few weeks of alone time to clarify and cleanse and regenerate myself

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I know not your answer

[fogwolf]

but occassionally I'll take a few days, pick a direction and go and I am always glad that I did.

[aruena]

u go on your own? :) do you go into the wilderness of nature or, say, a city?

I drive until

[fogwolf]

something feels right. Sometimes a small town. Twice a small naturist community. Often though its a park or wilderness. Stars and a sleeping bag.

Re: I drive until

[fogwolf]

I always go on my own. When I'm in that mood, much as I love my family and friends, I need to be some place where I can examine what it means to be me, when I don't have to live up to people's perceptions or conceptions about me. Strangers around me don't really get in the way of that, though the less people the better.

[aruena]

wonderful! exactly what my gut feeling tells me i should do. and yes, it has nothing to do with less loving anyone close to you, or your family. i envy you in a way. i miss the wideness of usa skies, here in the balkans it isn't like that. going out on a road doesn't give even remotely closely that feeling. but i'll figure something out. for example take a weekend drive to budapest, that is only 350km away from here. :)