where the girls like mouses breathe a long sigh of resignation
i have an intuition about people.
for example: every significant lover of my life has made some significant impression on me before i've even met them. each one is etched into my memory before i ever spoke a word to them. as i met them, i knew at that moment how i would feel about them forever.
another example: sometimes i sit at school in a place where many people on their way in or out of various classes pass by. when they move past you, you can lose yourself in the thought-noise of hundreds of lives in transit. you can look into their eyes, and if only for a second, see who's afraid, who hasn't figured it out, who has, who spends their day waiting for somebody else, who lives in a state of constant panic, who is deeply unsatisfied, who is so full of love, they can't keep it from oozing right out of them, who can't cope, who lives in a permanent fog, etc. it can be so sad, but when you see somebody who smiles with their whole being it lets the sun fill your whole day.
another example: when i first talked to her i knew right away that i could fall in love with her. as i first kissed her, i knew i would never be able to keep her for myself. i saw her coming into my life and walking right out of it. i knew that even when she said there was nothing wrong, she was already gone. perhaps it was because she was like looking into a mirror with a years delay, but i think it was because in an instant i understood her, before even knowing who she was. i knew i'd be let down and disappointed. and i still did what i did, and don't regret a thing, and it was amazing. it's like i got to be human again...and i got to walk on a cloud for a summer.
people do the things they do, because the things they do are who they are. i'd like to think i wouldn't find them as beautiful if they did anything different.
i hope life shines for you.
for example: every significant lover of my life has made some significant impression on me before i've even met them. each one is etched into my memory before i ever spoke a word to them. as i met them, i knew at that moment how i would feel about them forever.
another example: sometimes i sit at school in a place where many people on their way in or out of various classes pass by. when they move past you, you can lose yourself in the thought-noise of hundreds of lives in transit. you can look into their eyes, and if only for a second, see who's afraid, who hasn't figured it out, who has, who spends their day waiting for somebody else, who lives in a state of constant panic, who is deeply unsatisfied, who is so full of love, they can't keep it from oozing right out of them, who can't cope, who lives in a permanent fog, etc. it can be so sad, but when you see somebody who smiles with their whole being it lets the sun fill your whole day.
another example: when i first talked to her i knew right away that i could fall in love with her. as i first kissed her, i knew i would never be able to keep her for myself. i saw her coming into my life and walking right out of it. i knew that even when she said there was nothing wrong, she was already gone. perhaps it was because she was like looking into a mirror with a years delay, but i think it was because in an instant i understood her, before even knowing who she was. i knew i'd be let down and disappointed. and i still did what i did, and don't regret a thing, and it was amazing. it's like i got to be human again...and i got to walk on a cloud for a summer.
people do the things they do, because the things they do are who they are. i'd like to think i wouldn't find them as beautiful if they did anything different.
i hope life shines for you.