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Ok, its been a long time. Time for an entry.
Not to be a broken record, but it is strange to me how since I've moved here I've somewhat abandoned this thing. If you really want me to know something, best not to assume I'll read it here. Read my friends page for the first time in like a month tonight.
So. Life.
Well....
I am currently interning at Gotham Sound, where I spend a decent amount of time learning about live production sound setups. Its been useful. I do that three days a week and I have class on Mondays and Tuesdays. For awhile, I was also working on that job I mentioned, and tis done...woo....but I haven't gotten the second half of my money yet.
Also, I got approved by the department to write a cue for the last and biggest recording session of the semester, which is pretty rad. 35 players. Thats the most I've ever had, since that thing in high school, which well, lets face it.....although I worked hard, due to my own incompetence and the incompetence of the orchestra, sounded like a dying elephant.
Hopefully, this will not.
Personal life? I don't know. You know me. When I'm single, I tend to end up having a lot of one nighters with people that vaguely interest me. I go out on dates. Some of them end like that, some don't. There's rarely a second one. I live in a city of 8 million people, but its rare that any one person really captures my interest in any actual way, and if they do, either its not mutual, or there's some timing issue, with me or them. My general feeling about all that right now is that whatever happens, happens, and if I have some physical fun along the way, so be it. I'm not putting out any extra effort for anyone, because I mostly just don't have that in me anymore. After dealing with people like Luke and Jason, and even Brian in his way, I refuse to spend any more effort making a difficult situation work. From now on, for awhile, its their turn to make shit work, and if someone comes along that is willing to put that work in, and I see that evidenced over a period of time, maybe, MAYBE I might actually let myself become attached to someone. Other than that, my general feeling towards men right now is just this: BLAH.
And professionally? I don't know. Other than what I wrote above, I have a hard time bringing myself to talking about it. I just hope that the things I do are the right things, and that they're enough.
I feel...odd. and subdued. I don't know. Something fundamental has changed about me since undergrad. Since Smith. Not sure that its all good. Not sure how time is passing so quickly- I feel like I just left, and its nearing two years since I graduated.
Don't really know what the next step is.
Not to be a broken record, but it is strange to me how since I've moved here I've somewhat abandoned this thing. If you really want me to know something, best not to assume I'll read it here. Read my friends page for the first time in like a month tonight.
So. Life.
Well....
I am currently interning at Gotham Sound, where I spend a decent amount of time learning about live production sound setups. Its been useful. I do that three days a week and I have class on Mondays and Tuesdays. For awhile, I was also working on that job I mentioned, and tis done...woo....but I haven't gotten the second half of my money yet.
Also, I got approved by the department to write a cue for the last and biggest recording session of the semester, which is pretty rad. 35 players. Thats the most I've ever had, since that thing in high school, which well, lets face it.....although I worked hard, due to my own incompetence and the incompetence of the orchestra, sounded like a dying elephant.
Hopefully, this will not.
Personal life? I don't know. You know me. When I'm single, I tend to end up having a lot of one nighters with people that vaguely interest me. I go out on dates. Some of them end like that, some don't. There's rarely a second one. I live in a city of 8 million people, but its rare that any one person really captures my interest in any actual way, and if they do, either its not mutual, or there's some timing issue, with me or them. My general feeling about all that right now is that whatever happens, happens, and if I have some physical fun along the way, so be it. I'm not putting out any extra effort for anyone, because I mostly just don't have that in me anymore. After dealing with people like Luke and Jason, and even Brian in his way, I refuse to spend any more effort making a difficult situation work. From now on, for awhile, its their turn to make shit work, and if someone comes along that is willing to put that work in, and I see that evidenced over a period of time, maybe, MAYBE I might actually let myself become attached to someone. Other than that, my general feeling towards men right now is just this: BLAH.
And professionally? I don't know. Other than what I wrote above, I have a hard time bringing myself to talking about it. I just hope that the things I do are the right things, and that they're enough.
I feel...odd. and subdued. I don't know. Something fundamental has changed about me since undergrad. Since Smith. Not sure that its all good. Not sure how time is passing so quickly- I feel like I just left, and its nearing two years since I graduated.
Don't really know what the next step is.