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So I isolate myself from everyone, and it gets me in trouble, and I feel like I don't have friends. I do have friends, but I can't talk about the things I want to to these friends because everything is a giant incestuous mess and i trust no one. And all i want to be is be okay with being impulsive and not feeling that everytime i do something it is bound to hurt and estrange someone. I am tired of feeling like I am walking on broken glass. Because everything I was last night, was everything I wish I could be all the time.