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Well the other day, my cousin who had been on dialysis sp, for 30 years passed away. She was very close to me, my mom, and my brother, however we didn't see her much. Basically the medication she had been recently taking made her liver turn bad and her entire body just went downhill from there. My aunt diane seen her at the hospital the day before she died and said her feet and legs had already turned black and the inside of her mouth was already black. Almost as if she were already starting to decay, even though she was alive. She has been through so much and she can finally be at peace now. My aunt audrey said in her final moments, she spoke to my unlce earl who passed away about 4 years ago. And said that he had come to sit with her. Ethan was born on his birthday oddly enough. My cousin was married to a preacher and they both loved to ride motorcycles. Her brother jerry and his wife are both harley fanatics and each have their own bike, so they want everyone in the family and any friends they have that have bikes to meet at the funeral home tomorrow and lead the hearse to the cemetery. Her favorite color was pink, so they got her a pink casket and are getting her all kinds of pink flowers. I honestly don't know if I can handle going to the funeral home tonight because the last thing she said to me was for me to bring ethan to her house to see her and i never did. The least I can do is go see her one last time tonight, regardless if i can handle it or not. The guy at the funeral home said her veins were so worn out that if they were to embalm her, that any sores she had on her, it would leak through them. As far as I know, from 3-5 will be family and from 5-9 will be family and friends. I was over at her mother's house yesterday, who is my great aunt on my mom's side. Everyone just got together and talked about old times. It's really sad to think about it, but seeing her mother and brother cry makes me want to cry. And I'm sure it will tear me up to see her husband crying...I couldn't imagine his pain or anybody else's in the family as well. One thing about it, she's not suffering anymore. She's in a place where she will always be beautiful.