Am I Losing my Emottions?
Today I realized that I have no tears left to cry, I proved it to my family. I was taken home today, instead of riding the bus that picks everyone up. I went home to find that my already sick cat was dying. As I hauled my bags and heavy burdens up the stairs yet again, I found my silent room filled with three humans and a dying cat. The room was heavy with the circulation of tears and pain. I was suffocated, but held back the comments. I cleaned my room until they left. When they did I held him, I made sure he was alright and I told him I won't make him stay with me, and that I won't make him suffer. I knew my family took this hard and many of them tried occupying themselves with busy body work while I watched over him. I am his main care taker and so I knew what was wrong when he fidgeted and I knew that the dogs barked because they knew the situation. I know that my sister is taking this hard. I hope she does better.