Coming back for a word:
So I came back just to ring up some old memoeries. I realized I don't like. I hda awsome summer where God is still speaking to me and I am working in the mini- internship at my church. I invited Jenny over and let her see what I do. I am working on the scannign system and figureing out for the 9/11 service. I have been working on my riding skills and seriously thinking about the big boys league. I need to get my ap meeting done with and the book read. lol. I am at the moment content and worshping God. I meet some awsome people in Seattle one who is Christian, he gave me a scripture, Jerimaiah 29:11 that I believe speaks to me very strongly. Other then that I am not sure what to say. I do however want to say that I am becoming transparent. I am seeing my flaws and what I have done wrong towards this school and the students. I did not show them God truely. I said I was a christian and all, but all I was doing was dating the church, so to say. I wasn't finding God and seeking in him. I worried, " well what if I can't connect to those who are at this school?" you know what I was told? That God will let you know anything you need to know. If there is a student being abused. You are not going to get anywhere asking the girl, she won't speak. But God can through your heart. He'll let you know if you need to, then you can speak to her and let God speak through you to that abused girl. It will change her forever. I never felt better. I went through so much and always shut God out, I am so glad he found me and wrecked me all the way through! I now can say that I have no stress, dear, pain, hurt etc. Though I will see and know it, God is my father who will be there. I thought that he wouldn't he is no human, but let me tell you something. NO human can amount to what God has done and is for you. God loves you more than life, God gave his son and loves you with all your faults. Can you say your boyfreind loves you like this? If you have a kid will your boo be there? If you cheat on them or hurt them, will they love you still? If you show them your flaws or your habbits, will they want to leave you or make you change who you are like change your hair or skin look? If you did the worst thing possible to that boo of yours, that would easily break that love, would they still love you? God will.