Ouch, oUch, ouCh, oucH.

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Fuckin' eh? Wha'? No! Not that; any horrible thing but that! Being accousted is something of a routine for me now... I still have feelings for Barbenly; and they never went away, I just thought I could handle them when emotional occasions come up...such as the event of her having sex with our mutual friend. (I don't want to say his name for unamountable personal reasons) And now I think that she might go out with Ian and do those acts of pleasure that I once shared with her (if they haven't already), and I just really miss her. I miss being with her because she represents all that I would like to attain in life (relationship wise anyways). And I guess she no longer has those types of feelings for me anymore, which is a good thing I guess. So...the behaviour I need to do now is just try and get over it, but that's really hard. I have the emotions of a girl. Fuckity fuck fuck fuck.

So, what else is new in the world...The Pope's dead, I got assaulted on Sunday, my mom is worrying about the eternal salvation of my soul, my face hurts, the LDS church is gaining in size, people can't make up their minds on whether they fully believe in God or not, most of my music is VERY self absorbant, and I feel like a little sex puppet that has the emotional value of whore with an STD or two tucked up in her thighs. Gone and away this feeling is, not there it isn't...Fuck yourself, you must.

And like the cancer in your system
I've got a little surprise for you

Something inside of me
has opened up its eyes
Why did you put it there?
Did you not realize?
This thing inside of me
It screams the loudest sound
Sometimes I think I could

Burn

I look down at where you're standing
Flock of sheep all on display
With all your lies piled up around you
I can take it all away

Something inside of me
has opened up its eyes
Why did you put it there?
Did you not realize
Something inside of me
It screams the loudest sound
Sometimes I think I could

I'm gonna burn this whole world down

I never was a part of you
BURN
I am your savior
BURN
I am corruption
BURN
I am the angel
BURN
Of your destruction
BURN
I am perversion
BURN
Secret desire
BURN
I am your future
Swallowed up in fire