Stuff . . .
Is it almost time for Alayna to be born yet? I woke up this morning with the worst pain in my hips & sciatica. The sciatic pain is nothing unusual, but the hip pain is terrible. I guess Alayna must have dropped? Not sure. It seems that this morning she's only been kicking in the middle and not the sides as she usually has been. I didn't think that babies dropped until like 34 weeks, usually, but then again, nothing normal happens for me. lol Tomorrow is my appointment, so I'll ask about it then. They also want to check to see if I'm dialated tomorrow because of all of the BH's I've been having. They're hoping that they are all BH's and not contractions. I can't tell. Mild contractions would feel the same as my BH's have. I've hardly ever had an un painful BH. Maybe once or twice, but the majority of the time they felt like menstral cramps. :( Damnit.
So last night I started painting again. I've been working on the mural, but I haven't painted on canvas since, probably, I left school in January. I really missed it, but I guess I haven't been in the mood lately. I didn't even have any canvas, so I had to deal with just drawing with pencils. I don't really like how my painting is coming out, but I'll deal. I'm so critical of my own work, it's not even funny!! I'm also entering an art competition, so I have a small 8x10 painting going on just for fun and a large 18x24 piece going on at the same time for the competition. Party. I hope I finish the 18x24 one before the competition deadline. That one is coming out pretty well, but then again, all I've gotten is partially the background finished. *gasp* lol
I was so angry last night. I tried to do the right thing and tell someone something that someone was saying about them, and I almost get fucked over for it. The other day when I was at James' house, his friend said something to me that made me a bit mad because she should have been telling him that, not me. I'm not a messenger. Pretty much I don't think she wanted me there, and pretty much I think she was trying to hint things to me, but I'm not going to read that much into it. I tell him, and she denies some of the things that I heard her say. Granted, I was text messaging someone back, and when you're doing something else at the same time, sometimes your full attention isn't there, but I swear to God, I swear on my father's grave, and I swear on Alayna that the exact words I heard come out of her mouth were the exact words I told James. I'm sorry, but I just hate when people deny something that is as stupid as that. Just say the complete truth of what you said about someone and get it over with!! If you beat around the bush or stretch the truth, you'll only get yourself further into trouble, where as if you just say what you said in the first place, everything would be so much better. I just hate the fact that I almost got in trouble for "stretching the truth" when I did nothing of that sort. I would never lie about what people say about someone else. That's just beyond low and beyond kindergarden(ish). Does it pay to be nice? Unfortunately, with me, there is only nice. ugh Ahem, end of vent.
There is so much more that I need to vent about, but not right now. Right now I'm hungry; haven't eaten since yesterday, and I need to take a shower. I also need to be a good friend right now and be supportive, a good quality of mine.
I miss someone...guess who! lol