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[artisticstarlet]

This is kind of random and unnecessary, but this is my journal and I feel the need to express something that's been on my mind. I don't know if any of you have noticed, and you probably haven't because I'm pretty good at disguising my true emotions, but for the past 6 or 7 months, I've felt pretty much...dead. I've decided that I'm going to retire the use of my antidepressant because although it has helped control my rather extreme ups and downs, it has also suppressed my ability to feel, well...anything. Everytime I get upset, I can't seem to cry. It's like I just store it in the back of my head...it's kind of hard to explain. And although I get happy about things, the feeling never lasts long. I don't know...I feel abnormal. But I think my decision is for the best because I'd rather have extreme feelings than not have any at all.

~Nicole

P.S. I think I went up a cup size...damn you, birth control.