"Her"
I want to be corrupted by "Her".
I want to feel "Her" embrace.
I want to be inside "Her".
I want to create beautiful art with "Her".
There is no "Her" though. I'm really tired of being alone, and the last few months have been really hard. Of course with my current situation, nothing can be easy. I continue to walk in a different world, and isolation is always the theme of my life now.
My social life seems to revolve around medical appointments, and my Drawing group. I seriously don't know how I could deal with life without the group. I rarely even see the few friends that I have in my life, so the group entertains me. Instead of going out on the weekends, I'm hanging out on Tuesday nights. I'm really trying not to hit on any models anymore, but it seems like I'm always relating with the models. The male to female ratio for the artists still tends to be unbalanced. There has only been one art girl that I was really into. Maybe two. I seriously need another outlet to meet people. Ghent is actually an eclectic area, but I still feel like I'm out of place. As long as I'm in Virginia, I don't think I'll ever be happy. Unless I'm back in Richmond. I would say Northern Virginia, but the traffic and cost of living is too ridiculous. I like a nice middle ground, although I wish I could live in San Francisco. Why can't I just meet a creative individual who is into me? I've met some creative and interesting individuals on-line in the last few years, but no one lives here. It can get depressing. Someone needs to save me, and introduce me to "Her".
I want to feel "Her" embrace.
I want to be inside "Her".
I want to create beautiful art with "Her".
There is no "Her" though. I'm really tired of being alone, and the last few months have been really hard. Of course with my current situation, nothing can be easy. I continue to walk in a different world, and isolation is always the theme of my life now.
My social life seems to revolve around medical appointments, and my Drawing group. I seriously don't know how I could deal with life without the group. I rarely even see the few friends that I have in my life, so the group entertains me. Instead of going out on the weekends, I'm hanging out on Tuesday nights. I'm really trying not to hit on any models anymore, but it seems like I'm always relating with the models. The male to female ratio for the artists still tends to be unbalanced. There has only been one art girl that I was really into. Maybe two. I seriously need another outlet to meet people. Ghent is actually an eclectic area, but I still feel like I'm out of place. As long as I'm in Virginia, I don't think I'll ever be happy. Unless I'm back in Richmond. I would say Northern Virginia, but the traffic and cost of living is too ridiculous. I like a nice middle ground, although I wish I could live in San Francisco. Why can't I just meet a creative individual who is into me? I've met some creative and interesting individuals on-line in the last few years, but no one lives here. It can get depressing. Someone needs to save me, and introduce me to "Her".