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Hello, I am going to try to do stonewall again tomorrow night. Which is somewhat odd because now my brother wants to go with his female friend who is trying to find a girlfriend. Is my brother trying to set me up with his friend? This could get somewhat strange. I feel rather odd because I really don't see my brother much and I don't want to talk to him about my sexuality because he is my brother who is overprotective at times and somewhat odd. I wish I could say that I miss going out with friends but that was never really my thing to do in the first place. I wish I could get out a little bit more though. I am such a loner. I hate having people cancel on me so I don't set anything up. Does this make sense? Not really but this is just my way. I hope that sometime soon I can go out and just have fun. I find it somewhat strange that everything I do do is with my parents and rarely includes anyone else. I feel somewhat odd that I distance myself from everyone and then feel like everyone else is rejecting me when it is really that I just don't want to be around anyone else. It is a crazy cycle. I make no sense. I am not saying pitty me because I put myself in this situation but I just wonder how it would be if I ever really had a life of my own that I didn't just hope for something to happen for me that I would just go and do it. This is not one of those things that will happen overnight or anything but maybe I should start making baby-steps. So if anyone wants to meet me in Easton sometime I will treat for lunch or whatnot. I will write again sooner than the last time. I promise.
Kristen
Kristen