Sometimes I Wonder WHY? <3
Why is it I am SO gosh darn Niave?
I really like this guy-I have been hanging with him for a couple months we have a wonderful time together great company but there seems to be no commitment wanted on his part-really weird. I mean we have been so intimate-no sex-but very intimate and AUGH it is so frustrating. I want to shake him and yell Hello I am right here-I guess I need patience because it is really starting to get to me.
So this guy-I have never dated anyone with a child before and let me tell ya it is really different. I love kids and I so want to just play and be as loving as I always am with kids but at the same time I shy away from her because I am scared to get attached and things not work out between the dad and I. I mean I bought her a carebear-friendship bear-because she is always calling me "my friend, my friend"-she's three- auugh but I wimped out and didn't give it to her because I was scared he would freak out about me giving his child a present.
It seems like we take two steps forward and then the very next day he jumps back a half mile. I understand having been hurt, anyone who has known me since my existance in the boro knows the ups and WAY downs I have had, but sometimes you have to let go and live a little, allowing yourself to be vulnarable just to see if something comes of it.
See I can't even post this on my real blog because I know if he read this shit he would probably freak out and hell if I know.
it is so frustrating.Not many peeps know about this blog so Thanks for reading.
I really like this guy-I have been hanging with him for a couple months we have a wonderful time together great company but there seems to be no commitment wanted on his part-really weird. I mean we have been so intimate-no sex-but very intimate and AUGH it is so frustrating. I want to shake him and yell Hello I am right here-I guess I need patience because it is really starting to get to me.
So this guy-I have never dated anyone with a child before and let me tell ya it is really different. I love kids and I so want to just play and be as loving as I always am with kids but at the same time I shy away from her because I am scared to get attached and things not work out between the dad and I. I mean I bought her a carebear-friendship bear-because she is always calling me "my friend, my friend"-she's three- auugh but I wimped out and didn't give it to her because I was scared he would freak out about me giving his child a present.
It seems like we take two steps forward and then the very next day he jumps back a half mile. I understand having been hurt, anyone who has known me since my existance in the boro knows the ups and WAY downs I have had, but sometimes you have to let go and live a little, allowing yourself to be vulnarable just to see if something comes of it.
See I can't even post this on my real blog because I know if he read this shit he would probably freak out and hell if I know.
it is so frustrating.Not many peeps know about this blog so Thanks for reading.